how long does God test us?

[1bad350]

how long does God test people? I am only 22 but i have been suffering through deppression for the last three years. I dont know if i can handle life anymore, i am becoming detached from reality.. I have prayed to
God everyday for the last few years to help, and ask him what i need to do, so far my depression has only gotten worse, and i havent had any friends for years now. I used to wake up often at like 3 in the morning from crying, and i would eventually stumble to a place in the woods where i feel closest to God and pray for hours in the dark. I have no one to talk to except God, and it only makes me feel better for a short while.

would God test people until they cant live anymore? i have thought about suicide often, but i dont think i could actually do it, however i have driven over 230 km/h in hopes i would crash and end it all.

I cant talk to my parents, because they have never listened to me, even though we grew up a strongly christian family, my father has never said more than a 1000 words to me since i was born, even though we lived together.

 

[Blynn]

I have moved your thread out of Fellowship Court to this forum. Where we can get many praying for you.


I do not believe that God would test you until you could not live anymore. You need to find someone to talk to. Someone to help you. I am concerned about you because you are having thoughts of suicide. Depression can be treated you do not have to live like this.

My advice to you would be to please seek medical or professional help. It is ok to ask for help.

We are here for you too!

I have said a prayer for you and I will continue to pray.

God bless you
Roberta

 

[Biff]

To Ibad from Iworse,

We have a lot in common.  Speed to kill yourself, non talking dads, etc.

What you need is to be set free!

Jesus came specifically to do just that.  and well I know.

I also know that when you point a finger at others for your problems and misery, there's always three of them pointing back at you!

Wouldn't you LOVE to know Him and hear Him tell you: "Shhhh! MY Peace I give you.  No one can take it away!"  and..."Come unto Me all you Ibad's who are weary and tired of living and I will give you blessed rest!"

Well you can!

Start by reading My Story: 

 http://www.velocity.net/~subi/mystory.htm

Then let me know what you're plans are. (my address is on my web page there).

Free In Christ,

Biff

 

[AngelAmidala]

I shall pray for you as well.

 

[Kim777]

Oh Lord, please hear my prayer. I am praying for "Ibad350" who needs Love and is having a tough time with illness,seperation,doubt, and despair. Lord, help him feel Your love for him as well as our love for him. Cut through the tough layer of his depression and doubt and help him understand they he is worthy and valuable. Help him to recover. I know you can do it; I am hoping that it is Your will! In Jesus name I am praying, and I am lifting "Ibad350" up into Your light. You are the light of the World. Turn Your face to him and have him turn to You so that he can see the kind and loving image of Your smile in his mind's eye. Lord, lift up his spirit with Your Spirit. I ask these things as your child Lord, and because I fear for my brother who needs the light instead of the darkness he faces. I love you Lord. AMEN

 

[Blessed-one]

Don't give up the fight, if you hang onto Jesus, the future will change.
Trust Him, it will be done. I'm praying for you.

 

[GraftMeIn]

I will be keeping you in my prayers 1bad350

 

[debs]

Ibad, the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy:his work is easily identified. Jesus said "i have come that they (YOU!) may have LIFE and have it in abundance".
Friend, what you have been experiancing is not a test from God but the devil attempting to destroy you. We'll deal with him shortly......

Its important to identify any open doors that may be in your life that he is usiing to access you. Unforgiveness and Bitterness are BIG holes. Start with forgiving everybody especially your parents for the things you hold against them, ask Gods help and trust Him to bring those people or things to mind. Ask Gods forgiveness for your attitude/attitudes, ( ie. take responsibility before God for your part ) and ask His help to change you. (Inner change is made by the Holy Spirit as we spend time with Jesus..we are changed into His image)
Ask God to bless and prosper them. Then cut spiritual and soul ties with the blood of Jesus Christ with them and proclaim yourself free the name of Jesus Christ from any and every curse operating in their lives.

In initially reading your post I felt anger rise in me (a righteous anger/of God) and now we deal with the/your/our enemy:
Satan I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ for the spirits of strife and confusion and lying you have sent in the life of this Child of God. You have been exposed! The one true God has exposed you! You have attempted to blame God for the depression and lonliness that Ibad has been feeling over these past years. I bind those spirits now in the name of Jesus Christ. Father God I ask now that you would send your mighty warrior angels to my brother to drag them away. You can never return!
it is written: "whom the Son sets free is free indeed"
it is written "but we have the mind of Christ"
it is written " He will command His angels concerning you.."
You have been exposed! Praise God!.
That is enough. . No more! He is a child of the living God, purchased by the blood of the Lamb. We call you to account before the living God for every seed of lie you have fed into this life. We overcome you with the Blood of the Lamb and the Word of our Testimony.

Father, I pray for a fresh pouring out of your Spirit on my brother., Lord I ask you would fill him with boldness, confidence, and wisdom in Jesus name. Father I also ask that you would cause him to come into contact with your other children in the place he lives and also via the internet.
Lord Jesus, I pray that this brother would come into a fresh encouter with you. You MAKE him to lie down beside green pastures, You RESTORE his soul..
Father I ask that you would give him the Spirit of revelation that he might know you better.
in Jesus name, amen
Brother, i speak peace, wholeness, prosperity, health and Freedom Freedom, Freedom to you in Jesus name.

please post your first name so I can continue to hold you up before God...debs

 

[1bad350]

thanks for all your prayers everyone, last night after posting this message i went to bed, and i was felling really bad, i asked the lord for extra strength, and to help guide me. after crying and praying for a short while i felt completely at peace, i know things will get better even though it will take time. I still feel good this morning, and I will contine to seek guidance from God.

 

[Gerry]

Blynn has given good advice here. But if I may say one thing. Perhaps you will know what I mean. I feel there is somthig simple missing from your life that would make all the difference in the world. Well remember it is OK to ask God for your needs and if you ask in faith you can expect God to keep His Word and supply your need.

 

[will_wait4Him]

Dear God, thank you for helping 1bad350 come and talk to us about her long depression. And I also thank you for your undieing love for each and every one of us. God I lift up 1bad350 to you father, I pray that you'll help her find some friends, and help her make her peace with her family and herself. I also ask that you give her the spiritual and physical strength, to beat this depression. Thank you father. In Jesus name we pray, amen.

 

[Living for Him]

Praying for you.Read my scripture in my signature. It is so true.Gods time is not our time. One day at a time, don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow may never come. Lean on Him today, and then when you wake up romorrow, lean on Him again.Keep leaning.

Lori

 

[findtbax]

 Ibad, i'm here for ya man............................and stuff, if you ever wanna talk about stuff, doesnt have to be about depression, doesn't have to be serious (i'd prefer if it wasn't ) but yeah, just hook me up on a PM and we can chat, sorry to sound sappy, but yeah, it's all good

 

[debs]

1bad350...Hows it going now, can you do an update, and are things continuing to improve for you??...in his love, debs

 

[fieldmouse3]

I just prayed for you!