OldChurchGuy
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(Sorry to make so many posts in a row. I hope that's not against the rules or anything.)
Also, one thing that is especially keeping me from converting is fear: I feel a huge, incredible feeling of fear when I even think of converting to Christianity. It's like I'm afraid to even consider doing so. Is this normal, and if so, how do I overcome it?
I get the impression the fear is not so much in adopting Christianity but a fear that adopting Christianity means having to completely abandon many of your core values and beliefs. If that is the case, allow me to share a story:
In my youth (some decades ago), I was pretty much a literalist and wrestiling with various issues of the day. I was struggling to mesh a literalist understanding with some views that were non-literalist. An opportunity came along to teach the High School Sunday School class and I accepted.
The first Sunday I asked the class what they wanted to study and the response was "Revelation". I said this was fine with me because I had never studied it either so we would all have a good learning experience. I then asked how they wanted the information presented; i.e., one viewpoint or a variety of views so they could make up their own minds. They eagerly declared they wanted a variety of views.
The church had a great library so I checked out various commentaries such as Adam Clarke's, Matthew Henry's, J. Vernon McGee's, Haley's Bible Handbook, the Interpreter's Bible, and William Barclay. My simplistic belief was that there would be little difference between them.
Like Paul in the Book of Acts, the scales fell from my eyes as I realized there were multiple interpretations of Revelation and ALL of them could prove or justify their particular interpretation. At first this was frightening but then I found it exhilarating to realize there was room in God's world for multiple views.
At this point, my core theology is summed up in Jesus' description of the greatest commandments: Love God and love your neighbor. The rest (a literal versus non-literal interpretation of the Bible, correlating personal political views with the Bible, which Bible translation is the "best", etc.) is part of a fascinating lifelong journey of discovery and learning.
Heed the advice of RevCowboy and find a church that encourages you to ask questions and embark on your own spiritual journey. Since I agree with him, the man is brilliant.
Finally, at the risk of heresy, I submit the Bible may or may not be the divinely inspired inerrant Word of God. For me, the Bible is a collection of writings written by many people over centuries all striving to explain what it is like to know God.
May you find the courage to explore Christianity and may your journey be a lifetime of discovery and understanding.
Sincerely,
OldChurchGuy
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