I struggle with confidence and self-esteem. I always feel so awkward, weird, and unlikeable. And I was always very reserved. I would only talk to my closest friends. I felt awkward and terrified to even acknowledge anyone else. I think I used to come across as shy, reserved, a little odd, and slightly aloof. I was also always a super goody good two shoes, so I also came across as extremely innocent and naive to a lot of people.
But I've been slowly changing lately. I think I still come across as innocent, though not nearly as naive anymore. (Life experiences have smartened me up.) I've been pushing myself outside of my comfort zone lately. Losing 40 pounds gave me a little more confidence. I started being more open and friendly with people. I started to act like my normal self around everyone instead of being quiet and reserved around most people. I started to actually say "hi" to everyone I knew or even just recognized from church/work/school/etc. I stopped focusing so much on how awkward
I felt while talking to people, especially new people, and I instead tried to put my focus on making
them feel good, comfortable, and happy by what I said to them. I started to speak more confidently, whether I felt confident or not; I just kind of pretended to have a clue about what I was talking about. I stopped caring so much what everyone else thought of me. I guess I just sort of adopted this "Whatever! Haters gonna hate! So I'm just gonna be myself, do what I want, have fun, and stop caring what those haters think!" attitude. I guess I've just come to that point in life now where I really don't give a darn what people think of me anymore.
The result has been utterly shocking. People say "hi" to me all the time now. People invite me out with them and invite me to parties. People think I'm smart and they think I know what I'm actually talking about. People laugh at my jokes and comments and say I'm "hilarious." People start following my lead and example. People actually think I'm confident! They think I'm bubbly and social!

My new friends here at school say I give off the impression of exuding confidence and being very bubbly, social, and naturally outgoing! (All the COMPLETE opposite of what I've always known to be true about myself!

) I still feel like the me I've always known inside...but apparently I carry myself very differently now than I did before.