Hello everyone,
not sure if this is the right section to be posting this, i hope so, if not, apologies.
Me and my husband met about 6 years ago and fell in love while being best friends. It was a special kind of love, we were soulmates and told each others daily how blessed we were to have found each others.
My husband had sexual attraction to boys when he was younger, he even once fell in love with a boy in his teenage years, hasn't really lived his sexual fantasies though. Then I came along and he fell for me, we were together for 2 years and then got married. Been married for 2,5 years by now. We moved in and were happy. But something changed and he recently told me he felt strong attraction to men, at the same time he said he loves me more than anything and doesn't want to lose me.
Then he started to search for gay men online, since he needed someone to talk to. Then it was over with our sex life.....I spoke to him about 4 weeks ago and he cried a lot and said that he's can't live like this. He loves me but right now he just can't be with me because it feels "wrong". So I decided to give him his space (it was the only way he said) and moved out about 2 weeks ago.
I miss him terribly and I know he misses me, but he's just 100% sure that he's gay (has never had sexual intercourse with a man) and wants to try the new life. I know he's in search of friends, mostly gay friends, since he's completely alone. He has told his family that he's doing just fine, but I have hard time believing it.
He's unsaved, believes in nothing. Used to tell me that I was his angel sent to him, that we were meant to be. Now he seems to be ignoring all that and told me even that he tries to occupy himself ALL the time, so he doesn't face his fears and thoughts. He sleeps very little, sits at the computer mostly chatting or phoning with his new "friends", hates his job and has lost about 6 kg in 2 weeks. He has had an addiction to porn (gay and straight) since a quite early age and has never been able to give up on that, I also think that gay porn especially gave him the urge to "try it out".
I'm worried that he's falling and slipping away and I seem to be so helpless. All I do is pray to Lord Jesus Christ to open up my husband's eyes and send him some kind of sign to make him believe. It feels like the devil's got a hold of him and is slowly sucking him into a black hole. He is totally lost and alone, he just keeps telling himself that it's all "good".
My husband confessed himself about some time ago, that he knows the decision he made is not right, but he HAD to make it and had no choice.....
Has anyone had a similar situation? I would love to hear some suggestions....
Is there anything I can do for him but pray for his salvation?
I'm so scared that I will lose him, my true love and my soulmate....
Please mention us in your prayers.
God bless.
not sure if this is the right section to be posting this, i hope so, if not, apologies.
Me and my husband met about 6 years ago and fell in love while being best friends. It was a special kind of love, we were soulmates and told each others daily how blessed we were to have found each others.
My husband had sexual attraction to boys when he was younger, he even once fell in love with a boy in his teenage years, hasn't really lived his sexual fantasies though. Then I came along and he fell for me, we were together for 2 years and then got married. Been married for 2,5 years by now. We moved in and were happy. But something changed and he recently told me he felt strong attraction to men, at the same time he said he loves me more than anything and doesn't want to lose me.
Then he started to search for gay men online, since he needed someone to talk to. Then it was over with our sex life.....I spoke to him about 4 weeks ago and he cried a lot and said that he's can't live like this. He loves me but right now he just can't be with me because it feels "wrong". So I decided to give him his space (it was the only way he said) and moved out about 2 weeks ago.
I miss him terribly and I know he misses me, but he's just 100% sure that he's gay (has never had sexual intercourse with a man) and wants to try the new life. I know he's in search of friends, mostly gay friends, since he's completely alone. He has told his family that he's doing just fine, but I have hard time believing it.
He's unsaved, believes in nothing. Used to tell me that I was his angel sent to him, that we were meant to be. Now he seems to be ignoring all that and told me even that he tries to occupy himself ALL the time, so he doesn't face his fears and thoughts. He sleeps very little, sits at the computer mostly chatting or phoning with his new "friends", hates his job and has lost about 6 kg in 2 weeks. He has had an addiction to porn (gay and straight) since a quite early age and has never been able to give up on that, I also think that gay porn especially gave him the urge to "try it out".
I'm worried that he's falling and slipping away and I seem to be so helpless. All I do is pray to Lord Jesus Christ to open up my husband's eyes and send him some kind of sign to make him believe. It feels like the devil's got a hold of him and is slowly sucking him into a black hole. He is totally lost and alone, he just keeps telling himself that it's all "good".
My husband confessed himself about some time ago, that he knows the decision he made is not right, but he HAD to make it and had no choice.....
Has anyone had a similar situation? I would love to hear some suggestions....
Is there anything I can do for him but pray for his salvation?
I'm so scared that I will lose him, my true love and my soulmate....
Please mention us in your prayers.
God bless.