I feel like I am different from everyone. I am only 33 years old and I have lost pretty much my entire family. Three years ago my 34 year old brother died of pancreatic cancer. Two years ago my grandmother died of old age in the spring and my father died from complications from emphazima (or however you spell it). Last year, my grandfather discovered he had lung cancer in January and died in April. This year, my mother died from complications from a staff infection...ultimately. I have one brother left. I am going to counseling and trying to depend on people. I just want all the grief to stop. After my brother, grandmother and father died, I begged God to please give my family a reprieve from it all. I begged and pleaded for the death that was surrounding us, to be filled with peace. The next day, we found out that my grandfather had cancer. I hate that I am so angry at God. I shouldn't be. I begged for a moment of life instead of death, but He said no. I am so overwhelmed with the death and grief that has surrounded my life the past few years, I don't know what to do. I don't know how to move on. I don't know how to trust that tragedy is not always around the corner waiting for me. Sorry I've written so much! There is just so much in me. So many emotions! 
Any suggestions?
Any suggestions?
