Good afternoon everyone. I need some major help....2 years ago something happened that knocked the wind right out of my sails. In turn, I backed away from God and haven't even prayed since that fateful day. I thought I could heal from the devastation on my own and I have found the situation (and my emotional state) has only gotten worse.
Help me please.....how do I find my way back to Him???? I have been trying to find a way back to my husband (he had an affair), but I guess I should've been focusing on God instead.
I don't know what to do. I'm so lost and hurt and in pain, but everytime I try to "talk" to God, my anger towards Him comes seeping back through. I just don't understand why this happened.....
Dear Katrina C:
First, I am sorry to hear of your distress and suffering. There is no simple answer as to why we suffer. Why bad things happen to us. The sad fact is, that we are all sinners. We all have free will. And many times, our sins have devastating effects on others around us, even though the effected often are innocent and undeserving of the misfortune which befalls them. One thing to try to keep in mind is that God loves you. He wants you to love Him too. Like any father, He is waiting to hold you in His arms, and dry your tears when you are hurt. To reassure you. And also, like your father, He isn't the one who harmed you, but is the one who wishes to comfort you in your distress. It's odd how we back away from the Lord at the very times when we could use His love the most.
Your have posted on a Christian Forum, and this will generate many prayers to God to come to your aid. I will add my prayers as well. But please, even if you can do nothing else about what you are feeling, allow yourself to pray. Prayer is so important. It is how we communicate with God. Also try to remember that God is not the cause of your troubles, but He IS a possible solution, if you open your heart, and let Him.
I too have undergone deep suffering and loss in my life. Fortunately, my faith has not yet been shaken. One thing that helps me when I am confronted with what seems like insurmountable pain, is this passage, which serves to remind me that God entered our world in the person of Jesus Christ, out of His love for us. He endured sufferings which we can scarcely even imagine. Jesus Christ beckons to us always. He is ready to take your suffering and join it with suffering on the cross. He tells us that if we come to Him, He will help ease our pain. It has been my experience, that this is true, when I let Him.
Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you that labour and are burdened; I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon yourselves, and learn from me; I am gentle and humble of heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
May God bless and keep you, and ease your pain of heart.
Steven
