Thank you both for reaching out to me. I posted a long saga because I was in a desperate place within myself and I had no one to confide in, but no one responded. I edited my post to simply a question mark. Just in that you both found a need to respond and I am very thankful for you. God bless you both!
Autumnleaf put it perfectly. God is your primarily focus and glorifying Him in all you do IS everyone's purpose in life. Embrace your God given gifts and talents and use them to glorify Him