I lost faith when I was about 8, coinciding with the time I lost faith in things like Santa Claus and for the same reason. ..there was evidence at the surface. ..a guy at the mall in a red suit, presents under the tree with from Santa on the tag, but when I looked deeper I saw there were other, more reasonable explanations than a magical person traveling the globe in one night in a flying sleigh.
That's totally understandable, and I can see how a person can lose faith in both concepts at the same time. I remember when my sister came face to face with the realization that good Ol' Saint Nick wasn't really delivering presents, and wouldn't be doing so any time soon. In fact, I remember vividly that not only was she in tears and distress over it, but the very question immediately falling from her 8-9 year old mouth was, “...well, is there a God?!!” As I look back upon that incident, the funny thing for me is emembering that I answered “yes,” despite that I had already decommissioned Santa from my own mental employment, and I only knew a very tiny fragment about Christianity in general at the time—I was 12 years old. I suppose I said “yes” not because I knew the right answer, but because I felt sorry for her. In fact, I was not anywhere near being a Christian at the time; all of that came about 5 years later.
So what am I looking for? It's been 40 years and I honestly don't know anymore. I've looked at arguments for the existence of God or gods from logic, and I can at least accept that the universe might have to have a beginning, but can't make the jump to God from there.
That's ok, MG. Neither can I. None of the usual arguments--cosmological, teleological, or whatnot--have played much, if any, role in my faith, although I do remember restlessly laying in bed after seeing Carl Sagan's “Cosmos” in the early 80's and pondering the vast mystery of “why is there anything here at all” and “what came before the Big Bang.” Needless to say, I can admit that I've experienced many days over the past 30 years where I felt like a chimp in a
Kohler Experiment …
I've looked at the fact that a majority of people in my country believe in God, and countless people globally have faith in one religion or another, and wonder if they can be wrong.
Sure. They could be wrong. They could be wrong about a lot of things, however.
I've read and studied the Bible, attended worship services, and am currently an active member in my church.
That's great, and all of that is a plus. I know it may not always be as helpful as we'd like it to be, but it's all still a plus.
I've heard stories of people from a variety of faiths who have had spiritual experienced that have confirmed their beliefs.
That's good. I've heard that too. I've also heard that “confirmation bias” isn't uncommon either. But then again, I also surmise that what we each think constitutes “confirmation” of said phenomena isn't an identical concept residing in each individual human brain.
I've accepted that there are likely people more educated in the subject that believe, and have also been saddened when renowned Biblical scholars become agnostics because of their studies.
Sure. I've seen the same here.
I've prayed, spent time in meditation, even run things like ultramarathons....a quite that inspired me was 'If you want to run, run a mile. if you want to race, run a 10k, if you want to talk to God, run a marathon '.
Well...you've got me at a disadvantage there. I've never run a marathon, although I used to run track back in junior high. I never won a race, but at least I was in shape.
I'm no closer, and maybe that's why I'm here, to seek out other ways and hear from those with faith.
I think it's good that you're making that effort, MG … the only caveat to that is I don't think you're going to find a “missing link” that completes the picture of what faith is supposed to look like. You might want to question the extent to which you think you require closure to have achieve the feeling of "belief" ...