Well--I'm new on this website. It's my second day being here and I love it! So many topics going on! 
But let me tell you a story. I was very young when I was diagnosed with depression. 10 years old to be exact. My Dad started physically abusing me and my cousin started sexually abusing me. And it came to a point where I left the house. And I was gone for 3 years and I finally came back.
So that's a little bit of my story there. I'll probably put some more into the testimony section on here because I have so much stuff that has happened in my life that has made me the person today.
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I remember this day clearly. It was 4 days before Christmas last year, and my family and I were getting ready for the holiday. Until we found out that one of our family members had cancer. My Nana. It was a horrible day for all of us.
Three months later (March)), another family gets diagnosed with cancer. This time, it was my Uncle Mike (changed his name). And that brought me even MORE depressed. I was numb. I didn't want to do anything and I had no support from my friends. Most of them told me, "Life goes on." But my Nana meant the world to me.
Two months after my Uncle got diagnosed with cancer, my great Aunt died of cancer...and her funeral was on my birthday.
During the summer of 2008, my Uncle Mike was healed from cancer and we rejoiced. However, my Nana was in & out of hospitals and I was getting more depressed. I started to drink...I didn't get drunk, but I wanted to ONLY because I wanted to have fun and I wanted to forget the pain that I've been in. I wanted to make myself bleed, so I could feel the pain that I had inside.
So my Uncle got diagnosed with cancer, my Nana got diagnosed with cancer, and my Aunt died of cancer.
Sadly, my Nana has passed away on the 21st of October. I have been so depressed that I haven't done anything. I sleep most of the time now and been all emotional towards everything. I've been more cranky than I usually am.
And the day AFTER my Nana died of cancer, guess who gets diagnosed with cancer? My Uncle Mike. He has bone cancer and it is spreading rather quickly.
So am I depressed? Absolutely. I've always been depressed since the age of 10...but there are times when I become severely depressed, and this is the time where I am.
It's been a horrible year. But I'm so happy to have a Heavenly Father who loves me and who will love me unconditionally. "Only God gives inward peace, & I depend on Him." Psalm 62:5 (CEV)
But let me tell you a story. I was very young when I was diagnosed with depression. 10 years old to be exact. My Dad started physically abusing me and my cousin started sexually abusing me. And it came to a point where I left the house. And I was gone for 3 years and I finally came back.
So that's a little bit of my story there. I'll probably put some more into the testimony section on here because I have so much stuff that has happened in my life that has made me the person today.
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I remember this day clearly. It was 4 days before Christmas last year, and my family and I were getting ready for the holiday. Until we found out that one of our family members had cancer. My Nana. It was a horrible day for all of us.
Three months later (March)), another family gets diagnosed with cancer. This time, it was my Uncle Mike (changed his name). And that brought me even MORE depressed. I was numb. I didn't want to do anything and I had no support from my friends. Most of them told me, "Life goes on." But my Nana meant the world to me.
Two months after my Uncle got diagnosed with cancer, my great Aunt died of cancer...and her funeral was on my birthday.
During the summer of 2008, my Uncle Mike was healed from cancer and we rejoiced. However, my Nana was in & out of hospitals and I was getting more depressed. I started to drink...I didn't get drunk, but I wanted to ONLY because I wanted to have fun and I wanted to forget the pain that I've been in. I wanted to make myself bleed, so I could feel the pain that I had inside.
So my Uncle got diagnosed with cancer, my Nana got diagnosed with cancer, and my Aunt died of cancer.
Sadly, my Nana has passed away on the 21st of October. I have been so depressed that I haven't done anything. I sleep most of the time now and been all emotional towards everything. I've been more cranky than I usually am.
And the day AFTER my Nana died of cancer, guess who gets diagnosed with cancer? My Uncle Mike. He has bone cancer and it is spreading rather quickly.
So am I depressed? Absolutely. I've always been depressed since the age of 10...but there are times when I become severely depressed, and this is the time where I am.
It's been a horrible year. But I'm so happy to have a Heavenly Father who loves me and who will love me unconditionally. "Only God gives inward peace, & I depend on Him." Psalm 62:5 (CEV)
