My name is Tasha. I've gone through a lot in my life. For seven years I went through severe depression and social anxiety without knowing what was wrong with me. Was finally diagnosed in '08 with social anxiety and dysthymia.
I gave myself the username Wanderer because thats what I seem to have been doing my whole life.
When I was a child, I was Christian, but I had no structure to it. My parents didn't take me to church and never gave me much instruction, so I was left to find answers by myself. Being adopted and knowing very little about my birth mother, but knowing just enough to worry about her safety, I would pray for her safety and ask God to send me a sign to let me know she was happy and alive. I never really got an answer and so I came to the conclusion that I was a horrible and disgusting person and that God must despise me. These thoughts, now that I know I have dysthymia, were probably brought on by my depression even as a child.
I decided to leave Christianity in order to find something that I felt loved in. I went through a slight browse of the Jehovah's Witness religion. Then I was Wiccan up until...well...these last few months really.
I've known my boyfriend for around three years now and I've been dating him for 6 months. He is the kindest, and most loving person I've ever met. He's a devout follower of Christ. Unlike other Christian individuals that I have met, he's the first one who met my confusion and questions with understanding and patience.
I wish to find my way back to Love and Faith and God. I just need some help finding my way and how to go about it all. Any help, advice, and such is very appreciated. I wish to know what steps to take, how i should ask for forgiveness from God, and how to fully re-embrace God back into my life and make a transition back to Christianity.
Thank you very much
I gave myself the username Wanderer because thats what I seem to have been doing my whole life.
When I was a child, I was Christian, but I had no structure to it. My parents didn't take me to church and never gave me much instruction, so I was left to find answers by myself. Being adopted and knowing very little about my birth mother, but knowing just enough to worry about her safety, I would pray for her safety and ask God to send me a sign to let me know she was happy and alive. I never really got an answer and so I came to the conclusion that I was a horrible and disgusting person and that God must despise me. These thoughts, now that I know I have dysthymia, were probably brought on by my depression even as a child.
I decided to leave Christianity in order to find something that I felt loved in. I went through a slight browse of the Jehovah's Witness religion. Then I was Wiccan up until...well...these last few months really.
I've known my boyfriend for around three years now and I've been dating him for 6 months. He is the kindest, and most loving person I've ever met. He's a devout follower of Christ. Unlike other Christian individuals that I have met, he's the first one who met my confusion and questions with understanding and patience.
I wish to find my way back to Love and Faith and God. I just need some help finding my way and how to go about it all. Any help, advice, and such is very appreciated. I wish to know what steps to take, how i should ask for forgiveness from God, and how to fully re-embrace God back into my life and make a transition back to Christianity.
Thank you very much
