I didn't even know CF had a forum for the sex industry. I came here mostly for caregiver support but found this one looking through the forum list.
Basically I dance on weekends at a club near my house. I would dance more but I really am afraid I would get lost in the life. I really can't afford to do that either. I've been dancing on the side for about 4 years now. I have a day job to but I don't make enough there to support myself and my two brothers. One of my brothers is handicapped so he needs my support. otherwise I probably wouldn't have to dance. I don't blame him for it at all. I am glad I am considered pretty enough to make money to help him.
I just hate what goes along with the job. The creepy guys, being around drugs, being around so much drinking, having to make yourself believe a lie you don't. It feels like my face is stuck in a fake smile and fake laugh that I forgot how to really laught and smile. I stay pretty clean though, I don't do drugs, and I rarely drink. I think some of the other girls don't like me because of that. I know some of them don't like me because I don't do what most of the others do. I just wish they would mind there own buisness. I guess I can understand them not really understanding my situation. I really don't make it public knowledge. It's not that I am ashamed, it's just really personal and the girls at work don't need to know.
I never thought I would be a stripper. It still sounds funny to even think of myself doing that. Obviously it's not that I am better than stripping. It's just not where I saw myself say ten years ago. I was so embarassed when I asked for a job there. I work really hard at my other job and I just can't make enough. It's not a good feeling knowing you can't support your family honestly.
I'm Lissette
Basically I dance on weekends at a club near my house. I would dance more but I really am afraid I would get lost in the life. I really can't afford to do that either. I've been dancing on the side for about 4 years now. I have a day job to but I don't make enough there to support myself and my two brothers. One of my brothers is handicapped so he needs my support. otherwise I probably wouldn't have to dance. I don't blame him for it at all. I am glad I am considered pretty enough to make money to help him.
I just hate what goes along with the job. The creepy guys, being around drugs, being around so much drinking, having to make yourself believe a lie you don't. It feels like my face is stuck in a fake smile and fake laugh that I forgot how to really laught and smile. I stay pretty clean though, I don't do drugs, and I rarely drink. I think some of the other girls don't like me because of that. I know some of them don't like me because I don't do what most of the others do. I just wish they would mind there own buisness. I guess I can understand them not really understanding my situation. I really don't make it public knowledge. It's not that I am ashamed, it's just really personal and the girls at work don't need to know.
I never thought I would be a stripper. It still sounds funny to even think of myself doing that. Obviously it's not that I am better than stripping. It's just not where I saw myself say ten years ago. I was so embarassed when I asked for a job there. I work really hard at my other job and I just can't make enough. It's not a good feeling knowing you can't support your family honestly.
I'm Lissette
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