Hi

[hollygolightly]

Hi,

I could do with some help or advice or something off someone, but I've never spoken to anyone about this before.

I hate being in public spaces or around people and for almost a year now I have been taking slimming pills and became vegetarian so I can limit what I eat. I keep a diary of every calorie I eat and weigh myself every day. More recently I have started making myself sick if I think I've eaten too much or 'feel' heavy and taking laxitives every day because I dont want any extra weight in me.

People at church have started saying I look too thin but I think they're just lying to me because I know I'm still fat and could do with losing a couple of stone. Nobody knows about all this they just think I'm a fussy eater but it's not like I just wont eat some things so I'm worried that I might be developing an ED.

I still struggle with SI which a couple of my close christian friends know about, but they dont know what to do so I know it's no use talking to them about this and they might just think I'm making a fuss and thats exactly what I don't want.

If anyone could give me some advice or something I'd really appreciate it.

Yours in Christ

Much Love
xxx

 

[anberlinfan]

I felt like that for ages(still do a bit)
And ive tried most things ie, not eating at all for up to five days, throwing up, etc, etc.
But, the main thing to remember is that God made you the way he wants to see you, not how anyone else wants to see you.
The only person who your apperence should matter to is God, and he only looks on the inside


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