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mustang_94 said:

Hey everybody, I'm glad to see that not only all the regulars are O.K., but we got new bodys for the grist mill.

Norm, I see you are ignoring my request for your avatar. Well, watch out buddy. I mean when you least expect it, WHAP!

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sorry. didnt know you were asking for it. if you want to copy it - go right ahead. I got it off someone else at another site way back.

kanga22 said:

Thank you for all your input. I've found several meetings in my area. They are all in the evening though. I have bad childcare problems. Dh and I don't have anyone we can leave our kids with and will not leave them with strangers. Dh is not home enough for me to plan on going to meetings when he can watch them. So, I'm thinking I will have to deal with this without the help of AA meetings for now.

I truly hope that is possible and that I'm not kidding myself. After reading about alcoholism and AA meetings online, I have a whole new perspective. I know, now, that having even one drink is like walking into the road while a semi truck is driving toward me at a high rate of speed. One drink, to me, is like jumping off a cliff. I might survive for a while. But, evidentually (probably much sooner than I realize) it will kill me. My poor kids will be left without the only parent they have right now. I have a strong desire not to do that to them.

Can I do this with God's help but without the AA meetings? Or am I kidding myself?

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I have been to some AA meetings where kids were present in teh back of the room but the only palce I ever say any "organized" babysiting/daycare during meetings/service was at Celebrate Recovery meetings.

http://www.celebraterecovery.com/

it is a christian based Aa style program. The one I went to some tears ago i really enjoyed - the first night I walked in, I felt at home and felt Something (at elast I will say that in public). several months later, tho, the army shipped me out of the area and that was that.

you might want to check out the 12 Step folder here in recovery - theres some good topics there and a thread on the 12 Steps with biblical passages for it.

PrairieGurl said:

Not a dry drunk....just feeling 'crappy'.

There's a whole bunch of **** happening in my life... or should I say in the lives of my loved ones. These 'happenings' are just one of the things that would give me reason to drown the pain and reality of these 'circumstances' in a bottle (or two)...yep...didn't give into temptation today. Decided instead to use foul language and isolate myself from everyone.

Thought I'd just vent...to let other's know who may stop by...it sure ain't a bed of roses (this whole recovery thing)

I know this is just a bad moment...or I sure hope it is.

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Hey slick! caught me on my way out. just finished up in the military section and am logging off while i am still reasonably cool and collected...

so you used foul language and isolated yourself from folks?? you copying my ways again???? <expletive deleted> hehehehe

some days are good , some days are better and some days, well, lets just say its a good thing that there are laws protecting certain folks.... yes, some days just aint good no matter what you do or how you think. the folks who know me know whan I am in one of them days, i get this "look" and they just smile, say hi and stay away. works for me and mostly for them!

good to see you again.

Terri said:

Does the celebrate recover only meet once a week or does it have a lot of meetings like AA?

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hey terri! sorry I missed you question. It depends on where and who is having it. About 15 miles south of me is a city called Modesto of about 200,000 pop. There are 3 different CR meetings a week held at churches (not all churches sponsor this but will allow it to be held at their location). north of me in Stockton, there is one or two a week at at least 2 different churches.

So, it would depend I guess on where you live, who is having it, etc. where I live, no one has it. one chruch advertised it on their web site but when I called - was told it was cancelled over a year ago and they keep forgeting to remove it from the web site.

So, best to do is go to their web site, click on your state and search from there. The one I went to years ago (well, Feb - Apr 2000) had 2 or 3 meetrings thru the week and I went to the one on Friday nights. I would get off base, drive the hour and half to my ex's apartment, pick up her and the boys and we would all go. at 5pm they had a pizza thing for 5 bucks, at 5pm. was gather together in the audtiorium for singing, testimonies about recovery, meet and greet, etc - the christian side of the program. then dismiss to the AA style meetings where both the Bible and the AA Big Book was used. They also had a room for the kids to go to with adult supervision and for the dependants/supporters, a place that I think was along the line of Al Anon. I dont know if all and every CR is set up this way buit that particular one in Arroyo Grande, CA was.

I was not then (still am not) a christian but I do remember very fondly my experiences there. was the first time I went to a religious meeting where I was acepted for who i was and no one judged me and no one was being judged but all was acepted. there was those that were there just to get their DUI card signed but the most was there because it was "home".

(a church I visited the month before in Jan '00 when I told the asst preacher I was a recovering alcoholic he told me "there was other places for my kind...")

There was 30 or 40 christian recovering drunks and addicts that no one else wanted worshipping God and making folksa like me feel right at home and I was made to feel welcomed. loved even I guess I could say. I still smile with memory of that couple months. then the Army shipped me out of the area and it wasnt pretty after that.

when I think of the remote possibility that God might actually care and that he might love, that experience is what comes to mind.

its hard to explain the impact it had on me. but I dont know if this answered your question but its my thoughts on it.