I came across Hesychasm on a website I used to frequent. Can you expound on the concept and your personal experiences if applicable? Thank you.
Yours in His Service,
~bella
Hi Bella,
I don't have a lot of experience praying the Jesus Prayer, but from what I have, I can say that the words are not an empty phrase that one repeats mindlessly, like a mantra (at least, that is my understanding of mantra-"droning on mindlessly with an obsessive focus on the self as a divine being") The words are vitally important and each time we say them we should focus our heart on the words with all sincerity of faith and repentance. You may have to say it very slowly, or you might have to go faster- it's different for each person. It is not about quantity, but quality. Everything should lead to contrition and repentance, not a self-inflation.
"Lord Jesus have mercy on me a sinner" can be a prayer of supplication for yourself as well as others. It is not meant to be a groveling towards a vengeful deity, but a plea for mercy in faith that God is indeed merciful and loves people (that was my struggle with it in the beginning, before I understood it).
As for experiences- I had one time where I was anxious about some sin I had and after the prayer there was a profound silence in my heart and just a single clear word about what I should do.
Another time, before I was Orthodox (I was visiting at the time), I was in my car driving to church and all kinds of sinful thoughts towards the people were flying around my head, like a cloud of annoying gnats. I can't remember if I was praying the Jesus Prayer or not, but I prayed the Our Father once and just as I said, "and deliver us from the evil one," it was like the 'Lion of Judah' roared and demanded silence. Everything was just so eerily still and peaceful!
I can remember a few experiences where after a few minutes of praying, my room was just filled with a presence of peace, like it was dripping from the walls and I'm like "Lord, it is good for me to be here. Let me build you a tent
".... LOL!
... but in all seriousness, that's really what it is about- resting in the presence of the Uncreated Light (Jesus Christ) and being changed by that experience... Just to be clear, I never actually saw any light, maybe there are some monks who have, but we'll never know since they are too humble to talk about it.
If you are interested, I would recommend visiting an Orthodox church or a monastery church and just getting to know the faith in general. Don't be too eager to learn the Jesus Prayer, but just be open to where God leads.