ocd got me down. it makes me pray to the Generic God who is different than Christian God. i cant stop praying to the Generic God in my mine. i repeat words and prayers. and if i get anxious about something, i do it again. my ocd always ends up telling me "you did not pray right etc" and despite that I have some other ocd fears, i cant do it. i cant be happy. i used to pray to Christian God a year ago a lot. but... i ended up praying to the Generic God due to ocd. i just cant stop the compulsions. i am thinking about my life to pass the years fast and rest in peace. i am nit thinking about suicide. if tou have something to cheer me up its ok.