Help!

[idkanymore]

i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i have already had 2 abortions because i'm not ready to have a child and now im pregnant again! there are a few reasons i cant have a child.
1. i become violently ill and may need to be put on bedrest for the last few months which i cant afford to take even a week off of work unpaid.
2. im in no mental condition to take care of another life. i would either kill it or abuse it.
3. financially it is already very hard just to get by week to week.
4. it would ruin my husbands life.
5. we both do not agree with adoption.
6. neither of us will be getting a strong education or job anytime soon.

even though i know all of this something makes me want to keep this child which i know is very selfish of me. who am i to bring a living being into a world like this? my husband doesnt know i feel this way and i dont know how i would possibly tell him since he gets uncomfortable whenever i bring it up at all. i just dont know what to do anymore... i have thought of killing myself but i know that would be wrong too. who would take care of my dear husband? i think thats the only reason why i havent done it. anyways i dont know why im even bothering to type in this stupid place because i know all im going to get back is hate mail and people who "know" im doing the wrong thing. i just had to get it out...

 

[Akathist]

Dear, if someone sends you "hate mail" you let me know and I will get someone to help you with it.

But you do need to know that in this area of Christian Forums no one can write to you anything that would encourage you to have an abortion. They can only write things to try to help you decide not to have an abortion.

That is because of one of CF's rules. Rule 3.5 actually, were abortion can not be endorced in any of Recovery Forums.

I would encourage you to talk with your minister about this situation and get some real life help. I realize that it is hard to reach out for that help but with the stress you are under it sounds like you need to.

Here is a hotline to call as well: 1 - 877 - 949 - HELP .

The fact that you are even thinking of suicide indicates that you may be under so much stress that you might not be able to work through this without help from others. This happens to lots of people.

 

[idkanymore]

Well, thanks for at least writing me. I finally got up enough nerve to mention to my husband that I had feelings of wanting to keep it, and he agreed it would be selfish, and we can't afford it.
I feel like I'm dying inside...
At least someone took the time to respond though, even if it was a moderator. Thanks.
Well, I guess that's it. Sorry to bother you.

 

[Dawn1]

i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i have already had 2 abortions because i'm not ready to have a child and now im pregnant again! there are a few reasons i cant have a child.
1. i become violently ill and may need to be put on bedrest for the last few months which i cant afford to take even a week off of work unpaid.
2. im in no mental condition to take care of another life. i would either kill it or abuse it.
3. financially it is already very hard just to get by week to week.
4. it would ruin my husbands life.
5. we both do not agree with adoption.
6. neither of us will be getting a strong education or job anytime soon.

even though i know all of this something makes me want to keep this child which i know is very selfish of me. who am i to bring a living being into a world like this? my husband doesnt know i feel this way and i dont know how i would possibly tell him since he gets uncomfortable whenever i bring it up at all. i just dont know what to do anymore... i have thought of killing myself but i know that would be wrong too. who would take care of my dear husband? i think thats the only reason why i havent done it. anyways i dont know why im even bothering to type in this stupid place because i know all im going to get back is hate mail and people who "know" im doing the wrong thing. i just had to get it out...

i dont hate you and i went through one 2 weeks ago i wouldnt tell any of my christian friends cos i thought they would judge me i was very upset im slowly getting over it i get very ill too i was so sick i feel 4 u so much please sendme a note to say if u r keeping the baby or not is there a part of u that wants it can u be brave

 

[Dawn1]

i dont hate you and i went through one 2 weeks ago i wouldnt tell any of my christian friends cos i thought they would judge me i was very upset im slowly getting over it i get very ill too i was so sick i feel 4 u so much please sendme a note to say if u r keeping the baby or not is there a part of u that wants it can u be brave

if u take one day at a time and dont worry about anything that will happeh on any day that u r not in then u might get through it there is no easy decision here i want my baby back but i did it cos i was scared and didnt like feeling sick all day long

 

[Dawn1]

if u take one day at a time and dont worry about anything that will happeh on any day that u r not in then u might get through it there is no easy decision here i want my baby back but i did it cos i was scared and didnt like feeling sick all day long

ur online can u send me a thread id love to talk to u

 

[Dawn1]

i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i have already had 2 abortions because i'm not ready to have a child and now im pregnant again! there are a few reasons i cant have a child.
1. i become violently ill and may need to be put on bedrest for the last few months which i cant afford to take even a week off of work unpaid.
2. im in no mental condition to take care of another life. i would either kill it or abuse it.
3. financially it is already very hard just to get by week to week.
4. it would ruin my husbands life.
5. we both do not agree with adoption.
6. neither of us will be getting a strong education or job anytime soon.

even though i know all of this something makes me want to keep this child which i know is very selfish of me. who am i to bring a living being into a world like this? my husband doesnt know i feel this way and i dont know how i would possibly tell him since he gets uncomfortable whenever i bring it up at all. i just dont know what to do anymore... i have thought of killing myself but i know that would be wrong too. who would take care of my dear husband? i think thats the only reason why i havent done it. anyways i dont know why im even bothering to type in this stupid place because i know all im going to get back is hate mail and people who "know" im doing the wrong thing. i just had to get it out...

do u have low self esteem u can do it have faith in yourself you wont abuse your baby relax you will love it overwhelmingly im sure

 

[Pepperoni]

. . . I finally got up enough nerve to mention to my husband that I had feelings of wanting to keep it, and he agreed it would be selfish, and we can't afford it.

I say take a chance. You may not feel able to take care of a child--but never, NEVER underestimate what God can do.

Years ago I felt backed into a corner and made the wrong decision. I see clearly now what I should have done, but it's too late. There are so many better options.

You would be surprised at what a little determination and prayer will do.