Help!

[berry2000]

The urge won't go away. I feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. Just need some encouragement I guess. I know from the past I can go on for a few days like this and still make it through safely. Don't know why I need support just do.

 

[meh]

(((berry))) No one needs to justify needing support ever. You just do, and that's what we're here for.

Some things I used to do to get past urges was get out of the house first off. I'd go for a walk or even just go walk around Walmart...be in public somewhere I didn't have tools or couldn't do something. I'd also play games on the computer all night if I had to. It kept my hands busy. Some people journal or draw. I also played sports in high school, and I still keep a volleyball around for rough times. I just bump it against the house or just bounce it up and down.

And above all, pray.

You can do this.

 

[Cat59]

(((hugs)))
The urge will eventually go. Try doing all the things that have worked for you in the past, distraction, things that give you some sensation like eating spicy foods or crushing ice in your hand, writing down your feelings and riping up the papers, be with friends....whatever worked for you before.
And eventually the urge will lessen.
Cat

 

[praying]

The urge won't go away. I feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. Just need some encouragement I guess. I know from the past I can go on for a few days like this and still make it through safely. Don't know why I need support just do.

We all need support and there is no shame in that. We are always here to encourage you. As others have said try to focus your energies on other things.

 

[goldenviolet]

little berry butterfly... commere... *warmfuzzies*
*dee kisses owies* ...

Dear Father, please lift up our little sister. Abba! we know you love her, please shower her with love and joy. in Jesus' name, amen.

 

[berry2000]

Thank you all soooo sooo much for your support. The urges seem to have passed. So I MADE IT THROUGH SAFELY. No self harm or cutting for 5 1/2 months!

In case you are wondering or want to know some of the coping skills I used here they are:

1. I posted here and was honest with where I was at.
2. I called a friend (on who is expecting a baby next week) and we just talked about babies and the upcoming event (distraction-and getting out of thinking of myself).
3. I read the little butterfly post here on this forumn and tried to think on those postive thoughts and those scriptures. (Fill my mind with the truth).
4. I took some anti anxiety medication to calm down (XAnax).
5. I waited it out.

I can't believe I beat it! For all of you who are reading this and struggling with self harm please be encouraged you can beat it too!

I love you guys!

 

[treegirl2011]

Hey! One piece of advice I got that really helped was to pray to God to get you through this one urge and then do it when it happens next time. It WILL get easier and easier. I'm not gonna lie to you, it does take time! Just give it all to God and you'll get through it. Just tell him that you can't handle the temptation...he'll see you through! I'll be keeping you in my prayers!

Love Chrissy

 

[berry2000]

Ugh the struggle continues. I feel like doing it just because I haven't in so long. It's like a yearning. And I've discovered there is so much pent up emotions below the surface and I am so uncomfortable with them as they start to surface I start to panic. Like I need it to cope. Ugh.

 

[Cat59]

Ugh the struggle continues. I feel like doing it just because I haven't in so long. It's like a yearning. And I've discovered there is so much pent up emotions below the surface and I am so uncomfortable with them as they start to surface I start to panic. Like I need it to cope. Ugh.

Is there someone you can work with on this? To help you release your emotions in a safe way? So you feel more in control about things....
In the meantime, try using an opposite apporach is one thing. So of you get an emotion like anxiety starting to bubble up, think of all the things you've evr done that have helped you relax and try some of them out. It may only take the edge off it, but that could be enough to hold things together.
Cat

 

[berry2000]

Thanks that is a good idea. I came really really really close to cutting today. But right as I was about to I remember "No temptation has seized you except that which is common to man and God is faithful he will not let you be tempted beyond which you can bear and when you are tempted he will always provide a way out." I think it goes something close to that. So I prayed God, WHAT IS MY WAY OUT? And he said PRAY. So I prayed. And I made it though that moment. But I am just so mixed up and confused and emotional right now.

 

[Cat59]

It is just a case of working through each moment as it comes at present. Perhaps write that out and stick it on a card somewhere you can get it easily if the craving comes strong again...
((((hugs))))
Cat

 

[berry2000]

I don't think I'm gonna make it this time. I don't think I can hold out much longer. Fight w/ spouse has me "all worked up". Of course we are fighting, it's the weekend that's what we do most weekends. I should have expected it. I just feel so angry. And sad.

 

[Cat59]

How about a Psalm?
I always used to look through and find a Psalm to suit my mood and read it over and over again...
"Out of the depths I have cried to you O Lord, Lord hear my voice..."
(((hugs)))

 

[berry2000]

I am reading a psalm every night before bed...starting yesterday. Good idea.

Please all keep me in your prayers I am still struggling.