help

[bassdrum1]

while today i haven't had the feelings,{it's only 6 in the morning} i had a very strong urge to cut yesterday and the night before. i've been cut free and i know relapses r part of recovery.also i know u don't really every get rid of the urges. it just really scares me. i don't want to cut but i was too close the night before. i litearly had to have hairbows on my wirst yesterday and when i felt like doing it snap them. i did that so much that i left a red mark around my wrist. while some friends know what happened i still feel like i can't tell them everything. though i know i can. what's going on?

 

[BlackRain]

hey, you're not alone! i went thru a hard time like that. IT'S OK! you're doing the right thing by trying to avoid it. hang out with friends, get away from your house or being alone. call someone...anything to get your mind off of the urges. laugh a little...have some fun. the urges will pass, but fight them with the Lord. if you try to fight by yourself, you'll fail. God will give you endurance and strength. lean on him, that's one of the reasons why he's here.

 

[Renwolf]

I think it's really awesome that you're fighting so hard to keep from hurting yourself. Why do you think you can't tell your friends everything? I know it's hard to talk about, but if you think there's a chance that they'll understand, having people to talk to can be a huge help. Otherwise, can you call your friends just to talk? You can just hang out and chat and know that as long as you're with someone else, you'll be safe from yourself.

The self help section of the Secret Shame website has some really good info on how to cope with urges. http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/fself.html

You can also try the self assessment ( http://buslist.org/questions.html ) to try to pinpoint what is making you want to cut so badly.

If you can get to the source of the urges, it might help you to figure out what's going on.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much. You're not alone in this. Hang in there, and take care of yourself.

 

[~Beauty_from_Pain~]

Keep on risisting! I've been there. It is possible to not cut youself anymore...but it may take sometime...and the tempation may never go away...it's sort of like a drug that makes us feel better (because we focus on the cutting and not on the emotional pain). For whatever reason that made you cut in the first place, perhaps you need counseling. At times I am still tempted, like when I am down...but I think of people who care about me who know this and how much I hurt them...and it helps me from harming myself. Take care, GBU. U may message me anytime you like

 

[4childofgod]

Bassdrumm I understand this all to well. I was in the emergency room last night lets talk you are not alone! God is there even when we might not feel like he is. God bless