help please.

[j3nny7]

okay I just want to know if there's anyone who has had my problem.. Oh and tell me wether im guilty... I heard a pastor talk about the blasphemy against the holy spirit was unforgivable... then I got so scared that I started repeating in my head the holy spirit is from god.. so many times that night that I didnt sleep and the days went by and i cant stop repeating it.. sometimes i get so frustruated and mad that i think i've said what I dont want to.. Oh and now i get panic attacks that I need to repeat this or else im gonna say what i dont want to say... Do i have ocd now??? will god forgive me...??? sometimes i feel its me and that im so evil....please help i cant be normal anymore im always because i feel i havet to be controlling my mind...

 

[Daughter of His]

God knows your heart. He knows your of your anxiety and not wanting to speak out against the Holy Spirit. Blasphemey is intentionally doing this, on purpose.

My suggestion is that you pray when you feel anxious like this and simply tell God that you have no desire whatsoever to do this, praise Him, He listens, loves you and knows of your struggle.

I'm going to pray for God to give you His peace.

 

[Bennuboy]

I went thru that shortly after my breakdown, i was reading the Word and read the part about blasphemey againt the Holy Spirit and didnt sleep for 2 weeks and i wish i could help you more but all i can tell you is stay occupied, keep your mind off of it as best as you can and eventually it will go away. Also dont worry, if you had comitted the unpardonable sin you wouldnt care that you did, I know that doesnt sound comforting right now and will make you second guess yourself about whether or not you do care, but it's true and you do care or else you wouldnt be here asking for help. If you have any questions, PM me please, i dont want to write to much on a public forum, we have both been there and im sure you understnad how this subject is very sensitive to some people and we dont want to be a stumbling block to our brothers and sisters.
God Bless

 

[junezephyr]

j3nny7, yes, this is an obsessive line of thinking that I've struggled with too, as have many other Christians. There are plenty of threads about this in the OCD forum if you're interested.

There is a tendency for people with anxiety/OCD to worry excessively about things like this, and in turn their minds simulate blasphemous thoughts since they are living in fear of blasphemy. I don't believe Jesus was speaking about people who aren't thinking correctly.. I believe He was speaking about people who intentionally and repeatedly reject the Holy Spirit throughout the course of their lives.

So don't fear, just express your struggles to God in prayer, and claim the promises His word has to offer you. Trust in Jesus, and His loving acceptance of you. Yes, God will forgive you. Most of all, He wants us to trust in Him and enter His rest.

 

[UnitynLove]

It means to reject Jesus as the Lord and savior not thoughts.

 

[Laridy]

J3nny7,
I'll be praying for you to have peace of mind and spirit.
Jesus loves you and forgives you always. He holds you close at the center of His Heart and He will not let compulsive words keep you from Him. He will heal you in His time and in His way. Each day just draw closer to Him basking in His Love. He cares for you just where you are.

Praying for you,
Laridy