Help!! my testemony

[OptimisticSmile]

in a few weeks I am to be going on my first mission trip. the problem is I am currently having serious doubts of my salvation and what my testemony is. I thought i was saved about 2 years ago but for the past few weeks now I feel as though I have no personal relationship with God and that im not grateful for the cross or that ive never seen God in his true glory. Ive been praying and reading the bible and I cant seem to find assurence of my salvation.

pray for me that the holy spirit will lead me into truth and direct my path. I know that noone comes to Christ without the holy spirit drawing him. Pray that I will be led by his "still small voice"

I know what the bible says about Christ being the only way but im not sure if thats just my head knowledge or heart knowledge.

ive been discussing this with my pastor and things are coming together for this trip and I can share christ with someone even though my confidence in my own salvation is low right now. I feel so awful about going and being expected to preach when my faith is so shaky right now but ive concluded that saved or not if I end up there it is because God wants me there otherwise I wouldnt be able to go. I'll be expected to give my testemony and i dont know if i have one.

I have grown up in a christian home and made several proffessions of faith at various ages but none of which i felt was genuine or brought me peace and assurence. I am doubtful that ive been truly repentent and broken before Christ and i know that I cannot will myself into brokeness before him but that the Holy spirit does that.

please pray for me

 

[gloryseven]

wow,how honest and heartfelt your post and concern.

Just wanted to offer this. Jesus is near you, and in you. If you go with His Word, His Word will speak the Truth that the unsaved person is seeking. The Word will work in the unsaved persons heart. You can give Christ Jesus the glory, because you know that your abilities cant draw that soul to eternity with God, but His Eternal Word, CAN and will.

Dont rely on your own assurance of your salvation, but rely on the assurance of the Eternal Word which will Never pass away. Heaven and Earth will pass away,but my Word will never pass away.

Lord Jesus, hear this young mans concern and prayer and show him Your Spirit of Truth and give him assurance of Your love, Your Redemption of his soul and life and the grace and mercy that You poured out for Him when Your poured out Your Life and Blood on the Cross. Amen.