I just realized after a decade of marriage that my spouse has been gaslighting me.
I bring up an issue, not even trying to argue. He gets angry and defensive and turns the conversation into an argument, and then he comes up with a reason that I am at fault for the issue existing in the first place.
I then feel guilty and question myself and my sanity.
I feel angry that I did not realize this until now.
I'm afraid if I bring this up to him, the same thing will happen and just like all the other arguments, nothing will be solved. I will just eventually stop arguing and agree with him so he will stop yelling.
I walk on eggshells around him to not make him mad because of his tendency to have an explosive reaction.
He doesn't hit me or anything like that, but I realize now that all this time that these arguments have left me feeling like I don't know anything; like I am stupid; like I can't do anything right; like he is always right, and I am always wrong.
Right now I am angry and I feel hurt. I don't know what to do.
What I'm asking is this: as a Christian woman, what should I do? I want to stay righteous, but I don't want to keep doing this now that my eyes are open to it.
I bring up an issue, not even trying to argue. He gets angry and defensive and turns the conversation into an argument, and then he comes up with a reason that I am at fault for the issue existing in the first place.
I then feel guilty and question myself and my sanity.
I feel angry that I did not realize this until now.
I'm afraid if I bring this up to him, the same thing will happen and just like all the other arguments, nothing will be solved. I will just eventually stop arguing and agree with him so he will stop yelling.
I walk on eggshells around him to not make him mad because of his tendency to have an explosive reaction.
He doesn't hit me or anything like that, but I realize now that all this time that these arguments have left me feeling like I don't know anything; like I am stupid; like I can't do anything right; like he is always right, and I am always wrong.
Right now I am angry and I feel hurt. I don't know what to do.
What I'm asking is this: as a Christian woman, what should I do? I want to stay righteous, but I don't want to keep doing this now that my eyes are open to it.