Heya. I have always been a strong willed person and i have always told my mates to look after themselves and not to harm themselves. but the other night it all got too much for me and i just started punching myself really hard. i burst out crying and that made me hit myself more and i had throw my scissors away to stop myself and i just broke down. i tried praying but it was like i was talking to no-one. My youth leader then phoned for a scheduled phone call and it kinda passed away. Yesterday i woke up with the biggest bruises on my arms ever. i couldn't tell anyone and i got in an argument at school and started pinching myself discretly. when i got to youth group in worship i broke down and i asked my mate if i could talk to her and i told her everything. but while i was showing my mate our other mate walked in and saw my arm. She made me tell my youth leader and he said he will pray for me and so are my mates but it's like an addiction and i promised my mates i wouldn't but i got in another fight at school today and came so near to slapping myself so hard. i just can't feel like this no more i dnt know what to do. does anyone whos been in my position have any advice.
I know from experiance its hard for people who haven't been there to know the pain and torture going through the mind at the time.
I know from experiance its hard for people who haven't been there to know the pain and torture going through the mind at the time.