Help Me Plz Pray For Me!

[tytyty9]

Guys i REALLY REALLY need help i have severe ocd and i wont be able to see a counselor and i just started new medecine but wheni read the bible im so confused and my head aches and it makes me doubt. it makes me feel like im being forced to become atheist but i no thats not true and its so awful i need serious help i dont want to go to hell i just want to be with jesus but these stupid thoughts are killing me and saying he doesnt exist and im goign to cry its terrible PLZ pray for me PLZ i miss his presence i miss him i love him and he did come to earth to die for me but my thoughts make me feel so dirty and evil like i hate him and i just want them to go away! plz help me!

 

[whatfor]

I am praying for you.

 

[frank1234]

Sure I will pray for you. Also remember that by your own account of what you wrote in the email "i dont want to go to hell i just want to be with jesus"(I actually did a "cut" & "paste" of your own typing), You love GOD and no matter what your own (fleshly thoughts because of illness) are saying, deep inside your heart you love GOD. And GOD knows that, and That's all HE cares about. So your thoughts are there because of your health problems not because you are evil in your heart. Take courage in this statement, because people with OCD, such as myself, are very intuned and sensetive with their own fallen thoughts(Every body has these fallen thoughts, including christians), we are just more sensetive to them due to our composition toward the illness. So know that GOD looks at your heart not every word of the thoughts that come to your head. So, with the help of the medications, hopefully you will be able o disregard these thoughts and not pay attention to them as much. You definetly are going to need counselor as well. So hang in there and know that GOD loves you, just make sure that in your heart you love him and are willing to do what HE says. I will pray for you.

 

[QUannie]

I prayed for you!!!! I have an idea for you that I got from someone who had depression. Get a journal and section it with topics you struggle with. Doubt, fear, salvation....(i have those topics in my journal and others} Fill those sections with scripture that are geared towords that topic....my favorite that is under salvation is Romans 3:22 NLT "We are made right in God's sight when we trust Jesus Christ to take away our sins. And we all can be saved in this same way, no matter who we are or what we have done." When you need the truth, you can flip to the topic you need and just keep telling yourself TRUTH to replace the thoughts! I also have a section in the back called" sin list" when I have confessed a sin i write it down and then write over it in red pen FORGIVEN! That way when that guilt thought or shame or fear of that sin comes back, I can look back {I also put the date}and remind myself according to 1John 1:9 "But if we confess our sins to Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from every wrong." I have confessed and repent {turn to Jesus and away from that sin}I am forgiven. Today all i focused on was the scripture about salvation....it reassured me! I'm so sorry your struggling!!! I hope it helps!!!!
Q

 

[Bianca01]

 

[marcb]

I know how scared you are. I am praying that you know the LORD will never leave you nor forsake you. You belong to Him. The thoughts are just a "creepshow."

Please take the advice of these dear souls on this website. The medicine takes time. Please follow the advice of your doctor. YOU WILL BE OK.

 

[tytyty9]

guys but i really feel like i fell away i dont feel like i want god anymore but i do and it makes me feel like he wont answer me i want my problems sorted out im so confused and i want jesus back. it seems like when im trying to believe jesus the ocd or w/e makes me not want to

 

[frank1234]

Why do you feel that you fell away? It helps to be specific.And also It sounds like you need to talk to a christian counselor.

 

[OptimisticSmile]

i can relate to you right now. ill pray for you even though i struggle to pray. it hurts so bad but keep in mind 2 corinthians chapter 1 which talks about the God of all comfort , how God will bring comfort to others with through the comfort we have recieved ourselves. that means God will use our experiences to help others at some time . its so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel and to imagine getting better and im writing this for myself :You have to trust God.

my pastor and his wife had a miscarriage and for a while he was asking God why? what good is going to come of this? he gave a really indepth sermon on the death of a child and eternal security and yet did not feel any peace while several people in the congregation came to him and said they had been wondering about that issue for years and now had peace about it. You would have thought my pastor would have received peace from Gods word when he gave it yet the peace did not come until about a year later when a missionary couple came to our church and soon after had a miscariage. they were freinds and my pastor was able to help them because he had been there. its so awsome when everything seems to come together and make sense.

not long ago it seemed like everything came together for me and i was so full of joy. now like you im struggling when i read Gods word and i may qoute a verse that encourages someone else but I myself do not feel any comfort from reading Gods word. Im thinking probly like you and like my pastor Where is God in this. How is God ever going ti use this. I pray for the day things make sense and we can see God use what we consider unusable again. I pray that God will change our hearts to focus on him and to trust his hand even when it is hard to see we must trust that it is there.

 

[tytyty9]

thank you. thank you all. i just want to talk to god again. these thoughts are making it seem impossible though. can someone pray for me that i will be able to pray?

 

[Bianca01]

thank you. thank you all. i just want to talk to god again. these thoughts are making it seem impossible though. can someone pray for me that i will be able to pray?

 

[Ruukasu]

Your God, my God, our Heavenly Father

allowed this to happen to you and in a way me. He allows it for His purpose. You will come out a better person through all of this, a person more loving of other people, and a person more devoted to God.

Trust me. Keep holding on to love, cause science and athiesm can not disprove love, and God is love.

Focus your mind on Christ and His love for others, then show that same love. You can do it.

Oh, and you are saved, don't listen to your brain, listen to your heart, for God knows your heart.

Romans 10:9-10
That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.

 

[QUannie]

Did you ever notice how much scripture there is in the Bible on renewing our minds, thinking new thoughts, ect...
it seems like our battle is in our mind!I pray for us all!!!!
Q

 

[Softee]

I understand what you are going through. It is very distressing and heart breaking. However as OptimisticSmile stated, live on the fact that one day OCD will be gone and you will be able to help somebody with the same problem. Just make sure you remind yourself that OCD is not you & God is not judging you according to OCD. I Pray that God brings all of us who suffer from OCD peace & understanding. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[tytyty9]

guys...i used to want to read the bible and it used to connect me with god and i was full of him... now im scared to read it and it just feels like religious exercises. advice?

 

[marcb]

Read Ephesians. It is written to a Christian audience. The first 2 chapters are the most uplifting. It helped me tremendously when I was struggling (I committed most of the first 2 chapters to memory and retrieved it when things were tough -- I know that is compulsive, but it really helped me).

 

[tytyty9]

guys...whenever i gain ground on this disease, the thought comes into my head: Does God exist? Is this all meaningless? am i doing this all completely wrong?
The doubt that God exists is the worst, because if he doesnt exist then he doesnt love me, and its all meaningless. Stupid disease. It makes me so confused. Who misses simpler times, when we were all sure that God existed and we were exactly right with him?

 

[gracealone]

guys...whenever i gain ground on this disease, the thought comes into my head: Does God exist? Is this all meaningless? am i doing this all completely wrong?
The doubt that God exists is the worst, because if he doesnt exist then he doesnt love me, and its all meaningless. Stupid disease. It makes me so confused. Who misses simpler times, when we were all sure that God existed and we were exactly right with him?

Hi TY,
I just wanted to share with you that I too have had the exact same OCD spikes in recent weeks as you. I love Christian apologetics which means I get exposed to the atheistic point of view on a regular basis. So when I had my recent relapse or flare ,if you will,of OCD, one of my most bothersome OCD spikes was, "OH No, what if I become an atheist". Now when I began to attend to that most disturbing thought, it morphed into, all sorts of doubts on that same theme. Like "maybe it's me and not OCD, maybe I'm really starting to disbelieve in God, and don't really think He exists etc. etc." So afraid of becoming an atheist and spending so much time trying to convince or prove to myself that I wasn't. But if you know anything about OCD that is how a thought gets stuck in your brain and the accompanying intense anxiety that it creates makes it seem soooo valid and possibly true. You used the word feel, and feelings over and over again in your messages. This is the key. The intense anxiety that those thoughts create are the proof that they are OCD.
No athiest in this world would be the slightest bit disturbed that they don't believe in God. Only a Christian with OCD. While a true blue atheist who also just happened to have OCD might actually be very much bothered by the thought, "What if there IS a God", and not be able to stop obsessing about that. An atheist without OCD would be able to dismiss that thought.
You have to learn ,like I am learning, to recognize that these thoughts fall into the category of unwanted, intrusive OCD spikes of the pure "O" type of OCD. When you recognize that you have to learn to just let them be there without attending to them. If you begin to attend to them you will only increase their intensity and get them stuck in your brain. This is, as I'm sure you know the trap of OCD.
I read a lot of CS. Lewis. He like all Christians had momentary doubts about his beliefs. He said "after I became a Christian I had moods where the whole thing looked as if it might not be true and I had to learn to tell these moods where to get off." What he was saying is that it's common to have doubtful thoughts crop up in your mind about your faith and that usually this is caused by emotions or moods. But Lewis could just boot them out of his brain and get on with living the joyful Christian life as a great defender of the faith. But had Lewis suffered from OCD and had he been in the middle of a flare he wouldn't have found it easy at all to "boot" the thoughts out. He had such a fertile mind that I'm sure his thought processess, had he suffered from OCD, would have been even more convincing than yours and mine.
The secret to your getting well is two-fold. Getting on a medication that will dampen down the anxiety repsonse to the spikes and then learning to treat the spikes correctly by exposure/response therapy. This means you will allow the thoughts to be there (exposure), but you will respond to them in the right way instead of obsessing about them.
Bottom line, you are a Christian with OCD who is experiencing religious OCD that for now is causing spikes that center around doubts of salvation and fears of becoming an atheist. I'm just like you, you are not a hopeless OCD anomaly, just a fellow sufferer who happens to have the same symptoms of OCD as I do.
Praying for you and asking for you to also pray for me.
Blessings,
Mitzi

 

[tytyty9]

i agree. and thank you. but god used to rest his spirit in me ( a lot of it to) when i read the bible, but now im scared to read it because it just feels so religious, like just exercises made by man. i just want to be back to that stage again =)

 

[OptimisticSmile]

sometimes God withdraws a sense of his prescence and we go through valleys. you can read in the Psalms where david is crying out to God thinking God has left him. The valley song by jars of clay has really good lyrics about such a situation.