Hello, I am new to this forum. Here is some of my story.
I have been married for 15 1/2 years. I am a Christian, my husband is not. Neither of us were living for the Lord when we married.
The past 3 years of our marriage have been an ultimate struggle. He is verbally abusive to my son and I. Calling my son and I awful names, cussing at us and at times ignoring us to the point that you feel like you are in the way. For years my husband would kiss me every morning before he left for work. That stopped approx 1 year ago. He has emotional withdrawn from me. No kissing, huggging, snuggling, etc. He is also very addicted to pornography but will not admit to this. I have no evidence of a physical affair. I feel so alone and hopeless. I have prayed and I continue to pray for Him and the marriage but, my husband wants nothing to do with church and pretty much blames me for everything wrong in our marriage. I know I am not perfect but a marriage is between 2 people not one. Instead of things getting better over the years they have went downhill fast.
I feel I have done what I can in this relationship. He doesn't seem to want a divorce and I do not know what to do. His outburst scare me and my son has told me he would rather us divorce than go on living like this. I love the Lord with all my heart and I do not want to displease Him. I feel that I am at the end of my rope. I love my husband and I know he needs the Lord but my husband just views me as silly. Please some feedback. Has anyone out there been through this? I do not know how much more I can take. I know God said He wouldn't put anymore on us than we could handle. I am so confused.
I have been married for 15 1/2 years. I am a Christian, my husband is not. Neither of us were living for the Lord when we married.
The past 3 years of our marriage have been an ultimate struggle. He is verbally abusive to my son and I. Calling my son and I awful names, cussing at us and at times ignoring us to the point that you feel like you are in the way. For years my husband would kiss me every morning before he left for work. That stopped approx 1 year ago. He has emotional withdrawn from me. No kissing, huggging, snuggling, etc. He is also very addicted to pornography but will not admit to this. I have no evidence of a physical affair. I feel so alone and hopeless. I have prayed and I continue to pray for Him and the marriage but, my husband wants nothing to do with church and pretty much blames me for everything wrong in our marriage. I know I am not perfect but a marriage is between 2 people not one. Instead of things getting better over the years they have went downhill fast.
I feel I have done what I can in this relationship. He doesn't seem to want a divorce and I do not know what to do. His outburst scare me and my son has told me he would rather us divorce than go on living like this. I love the Lord with all my heart and I do not want to displease Him. I feel that I am at the end of my rope. I love my husband and I know he needs the Lord but my husband just views me as silly. Please some feedback. Has anyone out there been through this? I do not know how much more I can take. I know God said He wouldn't put anymore on us than we could handle. I am so confused.