Please PLEASE PRAY for my marriage for healing and that the Lord will help me not rely on my husband emotionally. One moment he's proud of me and now I can't do anything right.
When I couldn't reach him cause I thought he was ignoring my calls, I started to cry very deeply. I felt very alone, like as if I had an emergency he wouldn't be there. I got angry and hit the walls. No holes made but I know its wrong. My husband said at first i couldnt reach him at first cause he was talking to someone and then he couldn't answer he was in the bathroom. Who knows.
Pray that I will shine in the natural as well as spirit. That the Lord will SPEAK to him and show him the good things about me and tell him in a very direct way to treat me right. That the fear of the Lord will felt in him when he calls me names or puts me down.
Its a rare day when he's not criticizing something I either did or did not do ( I try not to respond now to keep the peace).
He often puts me down. He says I should work when he's angry and then recently said Tim Hortons would be my level of ability. He says my 2nd to last company fired me but they laid me off due to bankruptcy. The last job wanted to keep me but he didn't want me to work.
My confidence levels are not as they used to be especially with the things he's said , mentally lazy, distracted ..... if I had to find a job and in my field I would more than likely have to work evenings even on weekends and that would not allow me to go to church.
Pray that the Lord will show him mightily even with signs and wonders that the Lord is with me, that I am saved and not stupid or dumb or an idiot.
He can bw kind... like yesterday my husband said he was proud of me without any explanation why.
Today now I am the worst thing ever, someone who wears a pointy hat (witch), we are not compatible, etc. ...
Reason ...he told someone yesterday that working under the table was fine as long as it was under 15 000$.
From what I see the government doesn't agree. He said if someone has a busines they don't have to claim taxes on revenue about 14 999 or less so it would apply to this other person even though they don't actually own a business.
So I sent an email today if he could please show or explain to me where it's okay to earn close to 14 999 without paying taxes or declaring revenue along with a link I had found a week or two ago about working under the table from the government.
He sent a reply that I don't trust him. He called, upset. I texted...I said I just don't want him to get in trouble for what he advised the other person to do.
Before he was upset he asked me why I was cleaning with worship music on everywhère so I joked by text that I was cleaning the house spiritually cause he often listens to a worldly music artist instrumental with a smiley wink face.
Now he's offended about that too and says now what I said to someone was wrong and is upset about thst too (he didn't say anything yesterday )
Seems like I am the worst person today.
I said I wasn't speaking about what he does personally just what he advised the other person to do.
On top of all this my engagement ring broke todau so now he says as in the natural so in the spirit. He said that I broke things in the house and yes unintentionally when cleaning I did. I am clumsy distracted.
He said I am ungrateful for all he gave me. That I brought almost nothing into this wedding.
He called me a pharisee cause I dont believe its right.
he said that if a jew was hiding in the home that I would admit they were there if I was asked if there were any jews in the house.
I quoted the bible that says give taxes to whom taxes are due just like honor to whom honor is due. He says okay you should tell everyone that and see what they think ( as if they will laugh at me )
Please pray for peace on my home. I am tired of the constant criticism.
When I couldn't reach him cause I thought he was ignoring my calls, I started to cry very deeply. I felt very alone, like as if I had an emergency he wouldn't be there. I got angry and hit the walls. No holes made but I know its wrong. My husband said at first i couldnt reach him at first cause he was talking to someone and then he couldn't answer he was in the bathroom. Who knows.
Pray that I will shine in the natural as well as spirit. That the Lord will SPEAK to him and show him the good things about me and tell him in a very direct way to treat me right. That the fear of the Lord will felt in him when he calls me names or puts me down.
Its a rare day when he's not criticizing something I either did or did not do ( I try not to respond now to keep the peace).
He often puts me down. He says I should work when he's angry and then recently said Tim Hortons would be my level of ability. He says my 2nd to last company fired me but they laid me off due to bankruptcy. The last job wanted to keep me but he didn't want me to work.
My confidence levels are not as they used to be especially with the things he's said , mentally lazy, distracted ..... if I had to find a job and in my field I would more than likely have to work evenings even on weekends and that would not allow me to go to church.
Pray that the Lord will show him mightily even with signs and wonders that the Lord is with me, that I am saved and not stupid or dumb or an idiot.
He can bw kind... like yesterday my husband said he was proud of me without any explanation why.
Today now I am the worst thing ever, someone who wears a pointy hat (witch), we are not compatible, etc. ...
Reason ...he told someone yesterday that working under the table was fine as long as it was under 15 000$.
From what I see the government doesn't agree. He said if someone has a busines they don't have to claim taxes on revenue about 14 999 or less so it would apply to this other person even though they don't actually own a business.
So I sent an email today if he could please show or explain to me where it's okay to earn close to 14 999 without paying taxes or declaring revenue along with a link I had found a week or two ago about working under the table from the government.
He sent a reply that I don't trust him. He called, upset. I texted...I said I just don't want him to get in trouble for what he advised the other person to do.
Before he was upset he asked me why I was cleaning with worship music on everywhère so I joked by text that I was cleaning the house spiritually cause he often listens to a worldly music artist instrumental with a smiley wink face.
Now he's offended about that too and says now what I said to someone was wrong and is upset about thst too (he didn't say anything yesterday )
Seems like I am the worst person today.
I said I wasn't speaking about what he does personally just what he advised the other person to do.
On top of all this my engagement ring broke todau so now he says as in the natural so in the spirit. He said that I broke things in the house and yes unintentionally when cleaning I did. I am clumsy distracted.
He said I am ungrateful for all he gave me. That I brought almost nothing into this wedding.
He called me a pharisee cause I dont believe its right.
he said that if a jew was hiding in the home that I would admit they were there if I was asked if there were any jews in the house.
I quoted the bible that says give taxes to whom taxes are due just like honor to whom honor is due. He says okay you should tell everyone that and see what they think ( as if they will laugh at me )
Please pray for peace on my home. I am tired of the constant criticism.
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