Today, I took this woman friend of mine out to lunch because it was our last day before we were to part ways. We're both graduating in a few days, and she's going to go to work in DC while I'm moving to another part of Indiana. I've had kind of a crush on her for a while, but it was just the "usual" thing as for when I know a sweet, beautiful Christian lady.
But after today, uh oh. We caught ourselves staring at each other in the eyes as we were talking in this quaint sandwich shop. I was getting a REAL strong emotional response from her, and by her random speech patterns and her continual excuses for seeming "spacey," I could tell from experience that it wasn't exactly an emotionally dry time for her either. I really don't want to start anything with her, but I feel like I screwed that one up big time. I guess the romantic beast inside is trying to get loose!
I need some ideas, but I am not willing to try the "explaining where we're at" kind of thing. Expressing my intentions verbally always makes every friendship I've ever had with a girl awkward. I don't know, maybe I don't need ideas...maybe I just need to confess and vent so that I don't get thrown into emotional bondage again with a girl I cannot nor should ever go after.
But after today, uh oh. We caught ourselves staring at each other in the eyes as we were talking in this quaint sandwich shop. I was getting a REAL strong emotional response from her, and by her random speech patterns and her continual excuses for seeming "spacey," I could tell from experience that it wasn't exactly an emotionally dry time for her either. I really don't want to start anything with her, but I feel like I screwed that one up big time. I guess the romantic beast inside is trying to get loose!
I need some ideas, but I am not willing to try the "explaining where we're at" kind of thing. Expressing my intentions verbally always makes every friendship I've ever had with a girl awkward. I don't know, maybe I don't need ideas...maybe I just need to confess and vent so that I don't get thrown into emotional bondage again with a girl I cannot nor should ever go after.

