Hello Everyone *Waves*

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Congrats Dena and kelly

For me I'm at month 7.5ish... And now I probalby have endometriosis also....

A bit down about it all, but I'll get there.

 

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8.5 months now trying.

I have my op for endo in two weeks (see if I have it or not) then probably another op 3 months later (to finish the first op, like cut non dissolvable stitches and that. So I can't even try for the next 3.5 months approximately.

And today my best friend came round this morning... and told me she's 6 weeks pregnant. I can hardly believe it! I just want to curl up an bawl, but I can't. I have exams in 6 days, and I'm crazily busy til my operation (which is good I guess). The worst bit, is she's asked me not to tell my hubby til he is told by her hubby (they are great mates, and she wants to have him be able to tell someone). But they might not see him til Friday, and it's only tuesday today. And I need someone shoulder to cry on.

I hate feeling so jealous, and so happy for her, and so unsure about what my future will hold. Doc's are already saying next step is clomid for me

 

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I've had my operation last Monday. They found significant amounts of endo and adhesions. They also found polycystic ovaries (as expected so cauterised them), and I will need another op in 2 months. It hurt a lot in the few days after it, but I feel pretty good now. i.e. I can get up sit up, move around for a while but still need more rest than usual.

I feel really happy for my friend now She's 8 weeks and already had issues with bleeding and that so we are hoping she gets thru fine.

 

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(I know, I'm spamming this message, but it's easier than retyping many times!)

Ok, so I've been to the gyno this morning.

Thankfully the operation can be whenever I'm able to do it (thinking start of october after my teaching practice ideally!). And I'm able to try to get pregnant before the nextoperation but would need an operation to release my ovaries after the pregnancy.

He hopes the ovary cauterization will have regularised my cycles back to a 28 day cycle.

I've had my stitches out/tape off and it's all healing well. He's given me photos which make sense as to why it was sore!

And if I'm not pregnant within 3 months of the next surgery (6 months time all up), or more to the point my cycles haven't stabalised, he'll have me back for clomid and also sperm analysis and that.




Now for the other bit of my post. All of your supports been amazing and so appreciated, but I think I need to leave the thread for a time. I'm sure what I'm about to say will be "out there" for most of you, but I kinda feel like I need to explain why I'm leaving...
About 2 weeks ago at church, we had a pastor speak (not our usual one) who prayed for me regarding constant illness, disorders and injuries. He prayed that they'd be totally gone, and I know God can heal (for instance he literally immediately healed my dad's broken back). I know that if anything's going to stop the healing however, it's going to be me saying something's wrong with me, and that includes fertility. I kinda have been looking at the surgery as God's way of healing me from endo and pcos (since I know God can heal thru medicine as well). But I also know that staying in a thread that deals with infertility and that, will only make me dwell on my problems, rather than look at the positives. Now, I love it here, and I've really enjoyed getting to know you all, but I do need to look at spending less time here. I will probably be keeping my "issues" out of it however, and be looking at the positive sides of it. I will also be considering the issue of my "diagnoses" as have beens. I've had endometriosis but I'm healed because the surgeon removed it all. I've had PCOS but I'm healed because God's healed it and the beginning of that healing was done when the surgeon zapped the outside of the ovaries. I've had posture issues, but I'm working on fixing that now cos God's given me the strength to. I'm sure it sounds crazy, but I'm certain occassionally we are called to be

 

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Well, obviously I'm back.

My friend is telling everyone she's pregnant at youth group tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to it cos I'm happy for her, but goin to be hard not to burst into tears.

She's 4 years younger than me, been married only half as long as me - and I wanted to be first. She had her 12 week scan today, and yes, I'm happy, but man it hurts.

 

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I've been back to the surgeon/gyneo to see what the "plan" is after this surgery. The reason for the pain was a "chronic inflamation implant" in my tummy which he described like sunburnt spot (badly) on the inside which would hurt a lot. Everything fertility wise looks wonderful so surgery wise, I am fixed and ready to try

He's suggested that we have another try for the next 4 months now that everything is great on the inside. These are going to be monitored (bloods) and hubbys getting "tested" this week or next. I have another appt with him in 3 weeks. If not pregnant within 3-4 months, he (or repromed) will put me on Clomid for 4ish months/cycles and then we'd be referred away from the clinic as that's where the limit is for them being able to help. At least now I have a bit of a timeline as to what is happening.

 

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Hmm... been a while since I posted!

Since then, I was put on clomid, and half way through my second cycle with it... the first cycle on 50mg was too much for me and I got hyper stimulation, and this one seems so far like I haven't ov'd on 25mg... can't win!

I have been referred to the fertility specialists here now since everything physically is fine now, and I am waiting on an appointment possibly to see if I will get public funding, if not, I will have to wait for another 1.5 years to be seen...

I'm feeling a bit frustrated, but more at peace that I used to be. I am also looking at what I want to do if a time comes when we realise we can't have a baby....