Hello and welcome to CF, just to note, I was an ardent athiest before I became a Christian, 3 things that kept me from learning about what it was all about was
1) people being too pushy with their beleifs and forcing it upon me wherever possible.
2) I had a false image of what it was about.
3) I thought I was right and everyone else was wrong, I thought I had all the answers to life.
What changed? me, although I didnt make the change myself, I just had a strong desire to learn what it was all about before I could 100% dismiss it, however the reverse happened.
It is different for every person, if you are happy with what you beleive and it gives you substance, purpose and meaning then who am I to tell you what to do and beleive, what good will that do, to me we all reach a point in life where we desire to know more, learn more, and seek for answers beyond what we can see, its in our very nature to question life.
If you have questions regarding why I beleive what I believe then you are more than welcome to ask, if you want to discuss your viewpoint there is many non-Christian places on this site for evolution etc, we have had many discussions regarding this and I am very aware of evolution theory and big bang theory however my beleif gives me more substance.
Hope you enjoy your stay here and just wanna say, please try and keep your discussions fair and with dignity and respect for others, I can see by what you write that you seem to have some anger associated with Christianity, and from your biog you seem to think all Chrstians are foolish, but just keep in mind, what makes a greater fool? him who beleives the surface negativity against Christianity, or him who seeks for himself to find the answers and concludes to be for or against?
Peace,
Mark777