Hi, around two days ago, as I was dozing off, I heard, not audibly, but in my heart, God said 'you already know your husband.' So I shot him a few names and when I mentioned 'John' (not his real name) God said yes, it was John.
I hadn't kept in touch with John for a year, but I do remember that the times we met he was a gentleman, gave off harmless 'vibes', but because of his family background he had a lot of baggage and issues, and also because I didn't find him particularly handsome (good looks are important to me), I never quite viewed him in a 'potential husband' light.
Anyway, the next day, I shot a message to John, asking him how he was, and then I finally asked him if he had any feelings for me. So, I've learnt that John since we met, had started his own company, and also had become rude af, accusing me of all kinds of things like using him, being rude and obnoxious, and said a few really chauvinistic things. If anyone wants to say I deserve his accusations because i hadn't texted him for a year, I think it works both ways, if he had texted me first I wouldn't have ignored him.
Obviously, I got my answer, it wasn't 'God' I was hearing from... Keep in mind, I might have friendzoned the dude, but I've always been really nice and warm towards him, he had no reason to treat me like the enemy. I didn't get angry cause I know his mother neglected and abused him and so did his sister, hence why I said he had a lot of baggage, I expected him to be this way to be frank, the first time I spoke to him, despite his 'harmlessness', it was so obvious, by what he implied (in his really mild voice) he resented women in general because they neglected, abused and mistreated him for almost his whole life.
So this is my question, who was I hearing from? I'm sure it wasn't myself...although, I was praying a few days earlier for a spouse. This was the first time I really 'heard' God 'speak' to me, and it turned out it wasn't? Anyone with similar experiences and would like to share?
I hadn't kept in touch with John for a year, but I do remember that the times we met he was a gentleman, gave off harmless 'vibes', but because of his family background he had a lot of baggage and issues, and also because I didn't find him particularly handsome (good looks are important to me), I never quite viewed him in a 'potential husband' light.
Anyway, the next day, I shot a message to John, asking him how he was, and then I finally asked him if he had any feelings for me. So, I've learnt that John since we met, had started his own company, and also had become rude af, accusing me of all kinds of things like using him, being rude and obnoxious, and said a few really chauvinistic things. If anyone wants to say I deserve his accusations because i hadn't texted him for a year, I think it works both ways, if he had texted me first I wouldn't have ignored him.
Obviously, I got my answer, it wasn't 'God' I was hearing from... Keep in mind, I might have friendzoned the dude, but I've always been really nice and warm towards him, he had no reason to treat me like the enemy. I didn't get angry cause I know his mother neglected and abused him and so did his sister, hence why I said he had a lot of baggage, I expected him to be this way to be frank, the first time I spoke to him, despite his 'harmlessness', it was so obvious, by what he implied (in his really mild voice) he resented women in general because they neglected, abused and mistreated him for almost his whole life.
So this is my question, who was I hearing from? I'm sure it wasn't myself...although, I was praying a few days earlier for a spouse. This was the first time I really 'heard' God 'speak' to me, and it turned out it wasn't? Anyone with similar experiences and would like to share?