Hi there, i'm new here so i probably have many questions, some of which i won't have thought of yet. I've recently felt myself becoming closer to God, although it has been a very gradual thing. My mum is a devoted christian so over the years she has obviously tried as hard as she can to make me see things in the way she does. It's taken nearly 10 years but i do feel like i'm slowly getting there, not just because of my mum but a few things that have happened to me since i was born that were 'impossible'.
My trouble is though, i can't talk to people about it face to face(which is why i'm writing this). I admit, although being brought up through church i know very little about it so i am keen to learn. My problem is i feel very inferior to proper christians, because of the knowledge they have and the fact that some of them seem to look down on you because you don't know what you should know and it makes me very uncomfortable and i lose heart because it really feels like you don't belong.
I also worry that not being confident enough to speak about it shows that maybe i'm not really getting there after all because shouldn't i have no fear about being open?
My trouble is though, i can't talk to people about it face to face(which is why i'm writing this). I admit, although being brought up through church i know very little about it so i am keen to learn. My problem is i feel very inferior to proper christians, because of the knowledge they have and the fact that some of them seem to look down on you because you don't know what you should know and it makes me very uncomfortable and i lose heart because it really feels like you don't belong.
I also worry that not being confident enough to speak about it shows that maybe i'm not really getting there after all because shouldn't i have no fear about being open?
