Have I lost my salvation?

[Matthew47]

I was baptised 3 years ago, went to church for 1 year, did everything as a good christian should, but... after this one year I felt away. Main reason for my bad behaviour was sin of lust. I was searching for a girlfriend to date and marry after some years but I couldn't find any and became desperate in my sexual needs. I started to watch pornography recklessly for six hours straight every weekend, I wasn't attending church, praying - I backslid into my old ways. I watched porn with a thought that god allows me to do so, that I'm special (Did I comited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit?)

Hebrews 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,

I was getting interested into occult and creating tulpa as my girlfirend. Tulpa are hallucinations made by imagination... It's in occult.

I had bad ideas about myself that I'm a jew(but I'm not) that I can do sins without repeting and God would still forgive me, because I'm special in his eyes. I fell into self-deception of pride, because I wanted to commit sin of lust badly and get away with it.

I'm struggling for almost a year now with panick attacks and inability to stay still. One year ago I wasn't able to defecate, I thought I'm going to die and sought God with all my heart, I cried as I wanted to repent. I go to church now for a year, do conffesions, taking eucharist but can I be saved? Did God forgive me for my sins?

Hebrews 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,

5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,

6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

Last summer I had demonic attack to my smartphone, It was showing me some horrific stuff and that I'm going to end up in hell. Possesed buttons pushing itself without my interaction.

Can I still be saved? Can I go to heaven?

 

[d taylor]

The only way to receive Eternal Life (be saved) is to believe that Jesus is the promised Messiah from the prophecies of the Tanakh and trust in Jesus for His free gift of His Eternal Life.

When you believe,trust in Jesus or the free gift of His Eternal Life you are given Eternal Life, The gift of God, never to lose it you are now born again and have become a child of God.

Eternal Life is not received by doing things and Eternal Life is not lost by doing things.

Take a look at the Gospel of John.
John 1:12 But as many as received Him, to them He
gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name:

John 3:14,15 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in Him should
not perish but have eternal life.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

John 3:17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

John 3:18 “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

John 3:36 He who believes in the Son has everlasting life; and he who does not believe the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him.”

 

[Aussie Pete]

I was baptised 3 years ago, went to church for 1 year, did everything as a good christian should, but... after this one year I felt away. Main reason for my bad behaviour was sin of lust. I was searching for a girlfriend to date and marry after some years but I couldn't find any and became desperate in my sexual needs. I started to watch pornography recklessly for six hours straight every weekend, I wasn't attending church, praying - I backslid into my old ways. I watched porn with a thought that god allows me to do so, that I'm special (Did I comited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit?)

Hebrews 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,

I was getting interested into occult and creating tulpa as my girlfirend. Tulpa are hallucinations made by imagination... It's in occult.

I had bad ideas about myself that I'm a jew(but I'm not) that I can do sins without repeting and God would still forgive me, because I'm special in his eyes. I fell into self-deception of pride, because I wanted to commit sin of lust badly and get away with it.

I'm struggling for almost a year now with panick attacks and inability to stay still. One year ago I wasn't able to defecate, I thought I'm going to die and sought God with all my heart, I cried as I wanted to repent. I go to church now for a year, do conffesions, taking eucharist but can I be saved? Did God forgive me for my sins?

Hebrews 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,

5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,

6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

Last summer I had demonic attack to my smartphone, It was showing me some horrific stuff and that I'm going to end up in hell. Possesed buttons pushing itself without my interaction.

Can I still be saved? Can I go to heaven?

My advice to you is to consider afresh the basis of your salvation. Is it based on your behaviour, thoughts, feelings, choices (good or bad) or any religious endeavours? If so, you are in real trouble.

However, if your salvation is based on what Lord Jesus did for you on Calvary, when He died for all your sin, failure, faults and everywhere that you fall short of God's glory, then there is good news for you. You can be restored. For sure you have made a total mess of your life. So did the Prodigal son. He realised that he was living like a pig and went home. He was humbled by his terrible experiences. It seems that you are now aware of the folly of your ways.

The parable of the prodigal is as much about the Father as the son. It shows us that God is only too willing to welcome us back if we repent and confess our sin.

You have put yourself into the hands of tormenting evil spirits. That needs to be dealt with also. You need to find someone who will minister deliverance by casting out the demons. If you mean business, God will lead you to someone who can help.

I suggest that you read the two articles that follow. They will help if you take the advice.

Are you absolutely sure you are born again? - Christian Life Frankston
Are you under condemnation? - Christian Life Frankston

 

[Matthew47]

For this moment I believe in That Jesus died for my sins on a cross... but bible says that only those who endure till the end will be saved.

But what about my previous beliefs, have I crucified Jesus for myself as written in Hebrews 6:6

 

[Mountainmanbob]

Hebrews 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,

I was getting interested into occult and creating tulpa as my girlfirend. Tulpa are hallucinations made by imagination... It's in occult.

I had bad ideas about myself that I'm a jew(but I'm not) that I can do sins without repeting and God would still forgive me, because I'm special in his eyes. I fell into self-deception of pride, because I wanted to commit sin of lust badly and get away with it.

I'm struggling for almost a year now with panick attacks and inability to stay still. One year ago I wasn't able to defecate, I thought I'm going to die and sought God with all my heart, I cried as I wanted to repent. I go to church now for a year, do conffesions, taking eucharist but can I be saved? Did God forgive me for my sins?

Hebrews 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,

5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,

6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

Last summer I had demonic attack to my smartphone, It was showing me some horrific stuff and that I'm going to end up in hell. Possesed buttons pushing itself without my interaction.

Can I still be saved? Can I go to heaven?

If we keep on sinning
hardening of the heart may be coming.
M-Bob

 

[Matthew47]

Sometimes I fell like my heart is hardened I can't fell that felling of love then I take the eucharist. How to know if your heart is hardened?

 

[HTacianas]

I was baptised 3 years ago, went to church for 1 year, did everything as a good christian should, but... after this one year I felt away. Main reason for my bad behaviour was sin of lust. I was searching for a girlfriend to date and marry after some years but I couldn't find any and became desperate in my sexual needs. I started to watch pornography recklessly for six hours straight every weekend, I wasn't attending church, praying - I backslid into my old ways. I watched porn with a thought that god allows me to do so, that I'm special (Did I comited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit?)

Hebrews 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,

I was getting interested into occult and creating tulpa as my girlfirend. Tulpa are hallucinations made by imagination... It's in occult.

I had bad ideas about myself that I'm a jew(but I'm not) that I can do sins without repeting and God would still forgive me, because I'm special in his eyes. I fell into self-deception of pride, because I wanted to commit sin of lust badly and get away with it.

I'm struggling for almost a year now with panick attacks and inability to stay still. One year ago I wasn't able to defecate, I thought I'm going to die and sought God with all my heart, I cried as I wanted to repent. I go to church now for a year, do conffesions, taking eucharist but can I be saved? Did God forgive me for my sins?

Hebrews 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,

5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,

6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

Last summer I had demonic attack to my smartphone, It was showing me some horrific stuff and that I'm going to end up in hell. Possesed buttons pushing itself without my interaction.

Can I still be saved? Can I go to heaven?

This is a question that comes up in this forum every now and again. The last time was yesterday. But before I give the answer let's take a look at it.

You've read something in the bible and you understand what it says. It's fairly straightforward. Now you have people telling you it doesn't mean what it plainly states. There's not much reason for having a bible at all if it says in it something it doesn't mean.

When someone tells you the bible doesn't mean what it says it's an indicator that they are leading you astray. People ask all the time how they can tell which "denomination" or which preachers or which evangelists are the ones teaching truth when they all seemingly disagree with each other on basic essentials of Christianity. You can use what you've already learned as a first step in sorting all that out.

Now, the answer to your question is found in the following article. You should read it completely.

Novatianism - Wikipedia

 

[Andrewn]

I watched porn with a thought that god allows me to do so, that I'm special (Did I comited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit?)

No, I don't think you committed blasphemy.

I was getting interested into occult and creating tulpa as my girlfirend. Tulpa are hallucinations made by imagination... It's in occult. I had bad ideas about myself that I'm a jew(but I'm not) that I can do sins without repeting and God would still forgive me, because I'm special in his eyes. I fell into self-deception of pride, because I wanted to commit sin of lust badly and get away with it. I'm struggling for almost a year now with panick attacks and inability to stay still.

I suggest that you see a professional therapist or a psychologist or a pastor with the appropriate training.

Last summer I had demonic attack to my smartphone, It was showing me some horrific stuff and that I'm going to end up in hell. Possesed buttons pushing itself without my interaction.

It's really a good idea to see a specialist, at least for your hallucinations and panic attacks.

 

[Dave-W]

But what about my previous beliefs, have I crucified Jesus for myself as written in Hebrews 6:6

If you are that worried about it - I would say NO.

 

[GettingThereIHope]

For this moment I believe in That Jesus died for my sins on a cross... but bible says that only those who endure till the end will be saved.

But what about my previous beliefs, have I crucified Jesus for myself as written in Hebrews 6:6

When he says for those who endured, that means to believe in Christ before death basically, the Prodigal Son shows you can leave and still return! Hebrews is talking to the Jews who went back to sacrificing animals to God and saying Christ is not good enough. The only unforgivable sin in my understanding is continued unrepentance. That is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. The fact you want to be forgiven shows you are not beyond hope! Don't worry! Go to a priest and tell them this in confession, they will help! <3

 

[Aussie Pete]

For this moment I believe in That Jesus died for my sins on a cross... but bible says that only those who endure till the end will be saved.

But what about my previous beliefs, have I crucified Jesus for myself as written in Hebrews 6:6

The question is, are you born again? If you are, Lord Jesus would retrospectively not be crucified to undo your salvation. Oh Satan wishes he could go back in time....

You can lose the experience of salvation. You can lose all the blessings of being saved. You can miss the purpose of God for your life, which is a tragedy. But you cannot be "unborn" again. The new spirit that God gives us is eternal.
King David wrote wonderful psalms then committed adultery. He murdered in order to cover up his sin. God forgave him. David suffered consequences in this life. As we sow, so we reap. But David has a place in heaven.
Solomon had 700 wives. Can you imagine 700 mothers in law? He ended up in idolatry. His life was shortened because of his sin. He still has 3 books in the Old Testament. God is way bigger than our faults, pride, rebellion and doubts. He is well able to save to the uttermost.