Grieving the Loss of First Love

[savannahmary]

Hi everyone,

Almost 9 years ago, my first love passed away. He was in a car accident. It was just so sudden, and I was only 15. Ever since then, it's been very hard for me to get close to anyone. Any time I start to feel love for someone else, I begin to have panic attacks and obsessive thoughts that they're going to die suddenly too. It takes over my life.

I'm really tired of being trapped in this place, though. I feel like 9 years is long enough, and I don't want to carry this around anymore, but I can't seem to let him go either.

I have been in counseling for the last 6 years, but I think I really just need support and guidance from other people who have gone through losing a loved one.

Thank you for reading & God bless,
Savannah

 

[footballmommy]

Hi Savannah. I was 26 when I lost my first love. I was six weeks from getting married and he committed suicide. I was completely unprepared as I hadn't spoken to Jon in well over a year and I had always thought that he would be the man I would marry. I have never been able to visit his parents or where he was buried and I don't know if I ever will. What I do know is that you have to realize that your life moves forward and if they truly loved you, they would want you to move on. Forgive yourself for whatever you are holding onto. Life is too short which you should know from losing someone in a tragic accident. You deserve to be happy.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Hi Savannah,

I'm sorry for your loss.

Each person grieves in their own time. I'm glad you have sought counseling, and support as well.

I'll be here to listen if you need to talk more.

Kristen