Going in Circles

[superdave]

I don't know recently life has been seeming just to be going around and around- without any clear direction or answers. I know I should be feeling better- but somehow- as much as I try to convince myself that I am doing the right thing for me- and where God wants me- I still find myself- in absolute misery sometimes.

Here is a rundown of things:

1) No Job: I have no job... part of the reason is I can't find one. I have been looking everywhere- praying for one. I get called into interviews, but I get turned down. I do not have a college degree which adds to the fact- that I wont find anything that pays but min. wage- and that's not enough to live on or get ahead.

2) Lonely: I live alone in my apartment...by myself. I got myself into this. It has some benefits- but overwhlemingly, it's boring to be by yourself all the time. My friends are always busy. And I am not going to an ordinary college- so I can't make new ones. It's rather depressing- I am going to be out of my lease on Feb. I hope I can stick it out.

3) No Challenge: The school I am at- is good. But there really is no challenge- I want to get a degree in something- so I can provide for my family when I have one.

I don't know- I was so sure 3 months ago- but sometimes I am not sure I want to do this. I mean I don't really know why I am going into the ministry- maybe I think it's fate that I have to. But... the first three months have seem to be just full of different twists and turns- and it's not like I can't give it up- because- I feel connected to my church- which I dearly love. So it's hard. I am also a person who does not quit- I stay after something. I made up my mind to do this- so I will stick it out. But these things that are consuming me do not seem to give up.

I just need help.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Nothing makes any sense when you're 19.
I was a complete screw up and I turned out ok so you're gonna do just fine.
Just hang in there dude.

 

[Hewitt]

I don't think we ever understand the true value of anything until we don't have it. I'm poor because of college and I'm learning from that. My friends with the rich parents will have some problems when they leave college because they don't understand the importance of money. You're going to learn from this, God promises. In Romans, Paul writes about God working for the good through all situations.

 

[mamaneenie]

Nothing makes any sense when you're 19.
I was a complete screw up and I turned out ok so you're gonna do just fine.
Just hang in there dude.

I agree so much with this statement. I have seen some crazy times too, but in the end I look back now, and realise that it has helped me grow and learn so much. Hang in there. Do you really feel deep down that God has called you into the ministry? If so, he will turn it around for His purpose. Hang in there.

 

[MetalBlade]

Maybe these Answers can help you Dave.

1. No job! Dude you're in college, don't have a job until summer! Trust me, I am hurting right now cause of it! Jobs are hard to find these days, that is why it is important to get a degree.

2. Lonly. You're never lonly, at least in spirit, if you got Jesus in your heart! Get out and make some friends or visit old ones. Get some fish or a plant. Chilids make great friends!

3. College? Not for sure if you are complaning about the college you go to or you don't know what degree to get. This can be hard, but you could go to any college you want (join the military). But don't worry man.
Final Sloution: God has a plan for your life, don't worry!

A great poet once said:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

 

[erinm]

hang in there superdave!
I'm in the same boat as you right now, but after much prayer i am moving to a different school.
I just want to encourage you to keep praying, God will lead you to the place he wants you to be. life is always a learning experience.
as for the lonliness part, it is hard meeting people when you live away from everything. try to find a bible study and get the courage to go by yourself. you'll meet people that can relate to you and small groups make the best of friends!

 

[Living4Him03]

I just started reading a book called "wild at heart" by john eldridge. It's written for guys (yep girls can benefit from it to0, suprising more than we might know!!!!) and it talks about the boredom, among other things, most Christian men face and why they are bored and what to do about it. It seems to be the book every man should give his son when his son reaches a certain age...I know my brother has really been blessed by this book. He is in a similar situation as you. I would encourage you to read it. Hope it may minister to you God bless

 

[mountaingoat]

hang in there superdave!
I'm in the same boat as you right now, but after much prayer i am moving to a different school.
I just want to encourage you to keep praying, God will lead you to the place he wants you to be. life is always a learning experience.
as for the lonliness part, it is hard meeting people when you live away from everything. try to find a bible study and get the courage to go by yourself. you'll meet people that can relate to you and small groups make the best of friends!

Hey you guys, I am also in the same boat, but I just recently got a job at UPS some months ago, and already I got promoted. If you need a job, try UPS, they start of paying 8.50 but they are so many oppurtunities to advance and get more pay and it works well with going to school.

But on the school thing, yeah, I feel the same way, don't really have any answers, just know you are not alone. I don't even have a drive to go to school, because I feel like I am not being challenge. I know I need to transfer, and will be doing so soon, maybe you should do the same, SuperDave. And if you go to a more traditional college, maybe you could get the mental stimulation you seek but also have a social life. I hope everything turns out well!

 

[superdave]

Thank you for the Encouragement!- I am feeling somewhat better about my purpose. I went to class last night- we were talking about International Ministry- and the need is so great- And I just told God, "Hey here I am- I am a vessel- use me I am willing now." But anyway... The troubles here in the US are pretty heavy. I am so ready to go over to Europe, but I know I am not "ready" yet.

1) I am not really in a regular college- I have class 2 nights a week- I need a job- for my mental stability- and plus money. The job is very essential- Without, I cannot live. My parents are not going to give me $900.00 a month forever.

2) I have been hanging out with different groups of people. Sometimes I go over to my pastors house- He is about 30 and has a young family. The other night I hung out with a newlywed couple. And sometimes I hang out with a big group of highschoolers- and sometimes I am hanging out with just the guys.
I just want a constant person by my side helping me... I dont know if that will happen soon.

Although, I also made another commitment to God- I am not letting romance tie me down. Inlest God brings me a wife here- I am not looking. But I am seeking God for my paths and where I need to go.

Anyway that's where I am thank you for your prayers and encouragement.

 

[en|gma]

Don't feel bad and don't pressure yourself too much. I was also going in circles at that age...and believe it or not...it's not fun and I even complained to God. In the long run, I benefited coz I learned very valuable lessons that has helped me so far in life. I am still in His training ground though.

Just think that ur still in His training ground. Seek what He is teaching u at this stage in your life. I was in worse situations! And it was really hard to be a faithful Christian with a good testimony in those! It was a hard trial