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iluvnicholas21407
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I had a major act of faith last night. I told my boyfriend that I was going to live a christian life and that I was going to do it the right way. He became very angry and started going off because, "Every time he was happy and had a normal relationship. God stepped in and ruined it for him." At first I didn't say anything. He said he was going to get off the phone and cool off for a little bit. I, of course was crying this whole time. I went to my grandma crying saying that I am going to lose the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I told her that I couldn't let a relationship stand in the way of my relationship with God. So, it was the hardest thing I have ever done. I let go and let God. I had been told that this is difficult to do. I didn't know it was going to be that difficult. But I did it. There was one point where my flesh stepped in and I said no, we can work this out. I can have a relationship with God and Nick. But then after I said it, I knew it wasn't right. So again I told him, I have to end this relationship. I was crying to hard. It hurt so much. He hung up, I walked inside to Nana's room and started bawling. I wasn't going to hear from him ever again. I knew it. I knew I was giving up the man that I love. But I had to. Because I love God more. As I was crying to Nana, Nick called. Then changed his mind and hung up before I could get to the phone. So I called him back. He started saying he didn't know what to do. That he didn't want to live if he couldn't be with me. That no other man would love me as much as he did. I told him, you said it yourself nick. We have no common ground to stand on. He started crying. I said hang on I am going up stares. I asked God for the words to say to him. And it was like God caused my words to come tumbling out. I told him God loves him. That he was standing with his hand stretched out waiting for him to take his hand. He started bawling. I led him to the lord last night. We are going to do this together. It's a mountain and yes its going to be difficult. But we will do it together. We are making the center of our relationship God. We are still getting married in January. I felt blessed. God made all things work out. I am so glad that I listened to God and not my flesh. Because had I listened to my flesh, Nick and I would both be miserable. But now we are both happier then we have ever been.
PLease keep us both in your prayers.
PLease keep us both in your prayers.
