I don't have the slightest idea what I'm doing. I was asking myself "I keep bumping into this guy in different situations and different locations. I wonder if there is a reason for this?"
I see. It's clearer now why things might not have turned out well. Your heart was in the right place, though, and God sees that it was.
That is a pretty good point. It isn't really possible for us to determine what the bigger plan is. I just wish I knew the reason for why I am a magnet for misery and destruction basically no matter what I do.
Not even the Son of God escaped misery when he walked on this earth. He suffered terribly during his time among us. "Man is born to trouble like sparks fly upward," the Bible says. This was true for Christ and it will be true, sooner or later, for us all. But in good times and bad, God will use everything to make us more like Jesus - if we let Him. No miserable circumstance is without value, then, if through it we learn to be more like Jesus.
To be honest I've given up on trying to be like Christ because I'm too much of a loser to properly imitate 0.0000000000001% of Christ.
Welcome to the club. The truth is none of us on our own can ever be like Christ. Like begets like. We can only beget more of ourselves. If we want to be godly as Christ was, God will have to make us so. And that transformation begins when we realize that we can't be who God wants us to be. When we truly understand this, we stop trying to do for God and finally let Him do for us.
I read through the list of the fruits of the Holy Spirit and I'm like "yep I just flopped all of those up".
That's because they are the Fruit of
the Spirit, not the fruit of you. You can't produce such fruit by yourself. The Fruit of the Spirit
only comes
from the Spirit. And that fruit appears in one's life when one stops trying to make it appear by dint of one's own effort and surrenders to, and depends fully upon, the Spirit to manifest His fruit in one's character and living.
I just try to be useful because there is a chance that others might be worth far more than me and have a good chance of being saved.
You know this anchored to a lie, don't you? You are made, in the "imago dei," the image of God. You are no accident of nature. As a result, you have tremendous value. There is one, though, who would like you to think you are worthless. He's the Accuser of the brethren, the Father of Lies, the devil. Don't swallow this "I'm worthless" garbage he's been feeding you. Self-pity will only lead you to destruction.
He might do something important with what I did. But I'm still going to burn in Hell because I won't know that he is doing it. Hence the title of this thread "God only loves you if you believe it".
??? I already explained in an earlier post that God loved the World when it was at enmity with Him. God did not wait to love the World until it was lovable; He did not wait to love the World until it deserved to be loved. God loved the World when it was in utter rebellion toward Him and ignorant of what He would do through Christ to make a way of reconciliation between humanity and Himself.
Anyway, people go to hell because they sin, not because they don't know what God is doing.
And we are not able to mess that up? Sure seems like I do absolutely nothing correctly...
It's because we are all major screw-ups that God had to send His Son to die for us. Accepting this truth is the beginning of learning to walk with God. Your life isn't about you and how well you can do things, but about
God and the things
He can do in and through you.
I fully expect to go to Hell. I don't meet any of the necessary criteria for salvation. So Hell on this Earth and then Hell forever. The only good news is that I'm so socially isolated that basically nobody will even care.
Yeah, self-pity never looks good on anyone. The Good News of salvation is that the "criteria for salvation" was met by Christ on our behalf. All we gotta' do is believe it and yield ourselves to God's will and way. You certainly can't earn your salvation by properly meeting some "criteria."
When we are self-absorbed, isolation is often the result. When Self occupies us, we have no room for anyone else. But God can take you out of your self-interest, your self-pity, and bring you to the purposes for which He made you. He cares about you enough to die for you. So, why are you feeding yourself the lie that no one cares for you? It just ain't true.
It is hard to think about a place that you have almost no chance of ever seeing.
You have just as much chance of seeing heaven as Mother Theresa or the apostle Paul. That's because heaven isn't the reward for a life well-lived, but the blessing of trusting in Christ and through him becoming a born-again child of God.