God Listens & Understands

[angelkiss]

I just lost my brother in a tragic accident last Tuesday. I had to make a trip to Ohio, and forgot to get my meds filled before I left. I had a strong instinct, along with a few others in my family, that something bad was going to happen. The day of the viewing, Saturday, my instinct grew stronger and wouldn't go away. I prayed for God to guide me and help me cope with whatever I had to face. I truly needed his help for being without meds, a bipolar episode would have hit at any time, and it would've ran me over so fast, I knew that I was capable of anything. We arrived at the funeral home at 1:00 p.m. Around 7:00 or so, that intuition came true. My brother's wife came up to me while I was standing over my brother and said some things that were totally inappropriate. Especially at a time like that. I wanted to induce physical harm upon her, but God led me, and gave me the strength to walk away. I got the bipolar shakes and it took a while to rid them, but I eventually somewhat calmed down. Our entire family was upset by her actions, but we all kept our heads on straight and acted in a christian manner the best we could. It was especially hard knowing how my bipolar episodes come and go so fast. God knows my heart, and he knew that I wanted to do the right thing, therefore, he held me together. The next day, the day of the funeral, her brother saw me and gave me a strange look, as if to say, what are you doing back? When he saw my hubby walk around the vehicle to take me by the hand, he dropped his head and not a word was said. God answered yet, another prayer.
Everyone was so proud that I got the strength to walk away, and yet hold my head up. I sat through the worst funeral I had ever been to, which none of them are good. And my hubby led me out as soon as it was over. An episode in the waiting through the whole service. Me, along with our baby sister wasn't mentioned in the obituary. His wife said that he only had one sister. When in fact, he has 4. I don't understand why people have to act as they do, but I know God will not stand for his children to be brought down. I thank God for seeing me through such a horrible weekend, and I thank him for helping me hold things together considering I was without meds. He truly listens to our prayers and understands our hearts. God is Wonderful!!

 

[goldenviolet]

i'm so sorry for your loss and for this memory part of saying goodbye. i'm crying... real tears. i'm sorry with you. i'm so happy you felt God's hand protecting you. Our father is so lovely. *hugs* little sis ...

to you and your family.

Requiem Softly

It's ok to take a rose from my bed;
The roses intended for me,
I shall never know.
I am only here in your heart..
Whispering gently.
Time will nurture your sadness,
Requiem softly to memorize,
Thoughtfully to comprehend,
And lovingly to embrace and mend...
It's ok to cry,
With your eyes or deep inside...
Then tenderly claim your memories,
Because my body commited to this earth,
Simply released my spirit to rebirth.

 

[angelkiss]

Thank you so much for your comforting words and for the poem. It was lovely. God Bless!

 

[goldenviolet]

blessings!! this has really touched my heart.

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