January 1, 2012 3:30 pm. 39 years, 1 month, 16 days, 15 hours
God DID NOT take her, He welcomed her BACK.
It was NOT a punishment because she did something or that I did something. We all have a set time to be on this earth and when that time is up, it's up. It's not a bad thing, it's just the way it is, rain falls on everyone, good and bad alike.
Having been an EMT God kept me out of it until it was long over and I was only 12 feet away from her when it happened. Without a sound and her dog did not hear it and was about the same distance away that I was. He blinded me to how bad she really was and didn't want me to interfere with what had to happen, So when she said "It's ok, I've got this handled it's going to be ok." I believed her for she had never lied to me before.
Her death has brought me closer to the Lord, not further way. I learned I had a much bigger church family than I knew and because of her death I have reconciled with my Son and Daughter. My daughter is a NEW Christian recently saved and I could not be more happy for her. My Son has just recently returned to church and I am happy for him.
If I could "pray" Mary back I would not do it, for I know where she is and there is no more pain, no more anguish, no more trouble for her. I would not remove her from that blessed environment just for my foolish pleasure for whatever time I have left. And I will see her again and we will have a thousand years together with Christ here on earth.
Was it easy? No it is not. Does time heal the wound? No it does not, but you learn how to cope with it and the Lord will help you.
I regret many things, for Christ was not in our marriage except for the last 11 years and it could have been SO MUCH better if He had been there all along. He was with her but I resisted until 2001 just around my 53rd birthday and I am so sorry it took so long.
The Lord will help with the passing of a loved one, but you have to open the door for Him to come in. It's NOT an end, it's just going home.
God DID NOT take her, He welcomed her BACK.
It was NOT a punishment because she did something or that I did something. We all have a set time to be on this earth and when that time is up, it's up. It's not a bad thing, it's just the way it is, rain falls on everyone, good and bad alike.
Having been an EMT God kept me out of it until it was long over and I was only 12 feet away from her when it happened. Without a sound and her dog did not hear it and was about the same distance away that I was. He blinded me to how bad she really was and didn't want me to interfere with what had to happen, So when she said "It's ok, I've got this handled it's going to be ok." I believed her for she had never lied to me before.
Her death has brought me closer to the Lord, not further way. I learned I had a much bigger church family than I knew and because of her death I have reconciled with my Son and Daughter. My daughter is a NEW Christian recently saved and I could not be more happy for her. My Son has just recently returned to church and I am happy for him.
If I could "pray" Mary back I would not do it, for I know where she is and there is no more pain, no more anguish, no more trouble for her. I would not remove her from that blessed environment just for my foolish pleasure for whatever time I have left. And I will see her again and we will have a thousand years together with Christ here on earth.
Was it easy? No it is not. Does time heal the wound? No it does not, but you learn how to cope with it and the Lord will help you.
I regret many things, for Christ was not in our marriage except for the last 11 years and it could have been SO MUCH better if He had been there all along. He was with her but I resisted until 2001 just around my 53rd birthday and I am so sorry it took so long.
The Lord will help with the passing of a loved one, but you have to open the door for Him to come in. It's NOT an end, it's just going home.
