OK, So Every day I wake up I have nothing and no one.
Divorced and cant see my kids and have no one to wake up to and no one to buy things for and no one to go to church with and every day starting to find I do not care any more.
And the funny thing is , like when I was a kid, I just do not care if I live or die.
Is that something I should worry about?
Because to be honest I don't worry about living or death, Sometimes I feel like death would be welcome, a welcome escape from my reality. In the past I would play like I might commit suicide to get my way, but this is different, this is real and i'm not afraid to die. And i'm not thinking about suicide but am wanting a way out of my stupid existence.
You have heard of many who have a bad life, or have a horrible life, ok, ok, I have no life, nothing. I am wishing I had a bad life over no life.
So I spend my days preaching the word of God and the love of Jesus and how he died for us.
I'm finding this to be fulfilling but my life is still void. At least I could have some friends every day to talk to, to look forward to say hi and who are concerned for me, but nothing.
I meet a lot of people on here who talk for awhile but then loose interest for some reason or another and stop responding, I guess there busy, and that's ok, at least they have some sort of life, I'm glade for them.
Am i the only one? is there others who fell the same as I?
Looking for advise, not for others to pity me or fell bad for me, take that pity party out of here lol.