• The General Mental Health Forum is now a Read Only Forum. As we had two large areas making it difficult for many to find, we decided to combine the Mental Health & the Recovery sections of the forum into Mental Health & Recovery as a whole. Physical Health still remains as it's own area within the entire Recovery area.

    If you are having struggles, need support in a particular area that you aren't finding a specific recovery area forum, you may find the General Struggles forum a great place to post. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there.

    If you have spiritual issues related to a mental health and recovery issue, please use the Recovery Related Spiritual Advice forum. This forum is designed to be like Christian Advice, only for recovery type of issues. Recovery being like a family in many ways, allows us to support one another together. May you be blessed today and each day.

    Kristen.NewCreation and FreeinChrist

  • Starting today August 7th, 2024, in order to post in the Married Couples, Courting Couples, or Singles forums, you will not be allowed to post if you have your Marital status designated as private. Announcements will be made in the respective forums as well but please note that if yours is currently listed as Private, you will need to submit a ticket in the Support Area to have yours changed.

  • CF has always been a site that welcomes people from different backgrounds and beliefs to participate in discussion and even debate. That is the nature of its ministry. In view of recent events emotions are running very high. We need to remind people of some basic principles in debating on this site. We need to be civil when we express differences in opinion. No personal attacks. Avoid you, your statements. Don't characterize an entire political party with comparisons to Fascism or Communism or other extreme movements that committed atrocities. CF is not the place for broad brush or blanket statements about groups and political parties. Put the broad brushes and blankets away when you come to CF, better yet, put them in the incinerator. Debate had no place for them. We need to remember that people that commit acts of violence represent themselves or a small extreme faction.

  • We hope the site problems here are now solved, however, if you still have any issues, please start a ticket in Contact Us

Getting worse

Jump to latest Follow Reply
Status
Not open for further replies.
Sort by date Sort by votes
jen_soccer13

jen_soccer13

Well-Known Member
Oct 18, 2004
1,101
83
40
✟1,666.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
I haven't posted here in a long time cuz I feel like a bother...not sure why I am posting now.

Anyway, I have now been home from college for a week. Home is a bad place and when I am here I cut a lot more than normal. I have been going deep. Last night I cut pretty deep....I couldn't get it to stop bleeding.....probably needed stitches...I don't know...But the whole thing...didn't even scare me. I was happy that I did it that bad. Almost like then if I died it would just be accidental. I am hurting soo bad. I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep and never wake up. I have found myself praying to God to just take my life now. I hurt so bad and I can't hold on much longer. I can't find any reason to continue the fight. I don't know why I am posting here...not really much anyone can do for me....I dunno.
Sorry for bugging you all.
~Jennifer
 
  • Like
Reactions: Username: and ArmouredSaint
H

Hidden face_Hurting heart

Guest
:hug: I'm so sorry Jennifer! I've had a lot of those thoughts recently as well :(. All I can say is that God loves you, and he really does want you to feel better. He has a plan for you, and there is a reason why you're here. I know that sounds absolutely stupid when you feel so hopeless, but it's true.

Lord, please wrap your arms around Jennifer right now. Protect her and make your love and your presence very real to her in this time of pain. Help her to get through this and discover what you want her to do. Make the way clear for her, and giver her a way out of this pain Thank you Jesus. Amen.
 
Upvote 0
W

we5frogs

Child of God held in Jesus' hand
Apr 26, 2005
858
68
67
Allentown. PA
✟1,363.00
Faith
Nazarene
Marital Status
Married
Politics
US-Republican
jen - I am so sorry that you are in such pain, but I do know that I hear you, and more importantly God hears you, and I can only pray that you posting here was through the leading of the great Healer, who through the Spirit has guided you to bring you hurts here to us so that we can pray over them for you. As big as hurts can feel sometimes, I have always taken the greatest comfort from knowing that there is no time that He leaves us alone to go through them. He came down here among us so that He could know what we feel, what we need, and how to walk us through any valley we come across. He really is walking hand in hand with us. He feels your physical pain, He feels you mental pain, He feels your spiritual pain.

I will be praying for you:prayer:
 
Upvote 0
Godsgirl481

Godsgirl481

The Dark Wolf
Jul 13, 2004
5,193
66
44
✟28,187.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
Politics
US-Republican
jen_soccer13 said:
I haven't posted here in a long time cuz I feel like a bother...not sure why I am posting now.

Anyway, I have now been home from college for a week. Home is a bad place and when I am here I cut a lot more than normal. I have been going deep. Last night I cut pretty deep....I couldn't get it to stop bleeding.....probably needed stitches...I don't know...But the whole thing...didn't even scare me. I was happy that I did it that bad. Almost like then if I died it would just be accidental. I am hurting soo bad. I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep and never wake up. I have found myself praying to God to just take my life now. I hurt so bad and I can't hold on much longer. I can't find any reason to continue the fight. I don't know why I am posting here...not really much anyone can do for me....I dunno.
Sorry for bugging you all.
~Jennifer
Click to expand...

What's going on at home? Maybe if you talked about it here, it would make you not want to cut as bad....
 
Upvote 0
Godsgirl481

Godsgirl481

The Dark Wolf
Jul 13, 2004
5,193
66
44
✟28,187.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
Politics
US-Republican
jen_soccer13 said:
Well, things are getting better now. I left home. Long story. The only times I am really bad is when I have flashbacks at night or when I keep getting e-mails from family. Other than that I am now with a family that is loving me and taking care of me.
Click to expand...

That's really good...I am very happy for you....
 
Upvote 0
TheMainException

TheMainException

Senior Veteran
Jun 13, 2004
2,957
92
37
In my universe
✟26,728.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
Politics
US-Libertarian
wow.....your words express my thoughts so well "I just want to curl in a ball and go to sleep and never wake up"...woah....that's me exactly. Find a reason........GO FIND A REASON! You need a reason...you always need a reason...I lost reason once (many times) actually.....but keep going...God is there for you......no matter what, no matter how far he seems.....he bled for you...and I'm not just talking about on the cross...I'm talking about in the garden too....he was so upset that he bled......can you imagine being that upset that you don't need a knife to bleed yourself? That's insane...but he did...he knows what inside pain feels like......it's harsh and he knows......but he loves you no matter what you choose.
 
Upvote 0
L

luv4godremains

Well-Known Member
Apr 13, 2005
1,506
91
36
✟2,121.00
Faith
Christian
Marital Status
Single
do you have dreams for the future? Thats what made me hold on, I can't say that it took the pain away, or that I haven't lost it at times, just sitting there in pain, about to do something i wouldn't even be able to live to regret, but, i can say that it helps! if you don't know what it is you want to do, cry out to God, ask him what his dream for you is, what his plan is, what it is that you and only you could do for him! it really helped me. I hope this post has helped you!
God bless.
xXx
hope you feel better soon!!!
 
Upvote 0
B

bassdrum1

Regular Member
Jun 8, 2005
189
3
36
town of nothingness
✟451.00
Faith
Baptist
Marital Status
Single
Politics
US-Republican
jen_soccer13 said:
Well, things are getting better now. I left home. Long story. The only times I am really bad is when I have flashbacks at night or when I keep getting e-mails from family. Other than that I am now with a family that is loving me and taking care of me.
Click to expand...

i'm glad things r getting better.i'll be praying. i know how flashbacks are and they stink. i have flashbacks of why i started cutting and want to do it again. i'm glad a family loves u and is taking care of u. even though i don't know u i love u to. :hug: take care. if u need to talk i'm here for u.:)
 
Upvote 0
Status
Not open for further replies.

Similar threads

GabrielNY
Please pray for my unemployment situation
Replies
1
Views
168
Prayer Wall
linux.poet
linux.poet
JacquelineDeane55
Why can't people just be good?
Replies
3
Views
331
Deeper Fellowship
NBB
N
JacquelineDeane55
Are People a Mix?
Replies
46
Views
2K
Ethics & Morality
partinobodycular
partinobodycular
JacquelineDeane55
Do you guys just want to yak?
Replies
8
Views
882
Community Hangout
Lost4words
Lost4words
JacquelineDeane55
Schizophrenia is something my uncle had
Replies
1
Views
181
Psychosis and Schizophrenia
AceWestfall08
AceWestfall08
Top Bottom
Jump to latest Follow Reply
Jump to latest Follow Reply