I dont even care anymore. Im tired, weary, obsessed with finding the truth of the bible. Almost exactly a year ago i went through a depression that almost made me kill myself. When i came to my senses i got up and went to talk to my mother and ever since then have been looking for the truth. Now i want to know what Jesus really taught. Im looking into Eastern orthodoxy now, but i think im going into depression again. Almost everywaking moment im thinking of religion and whats right. People on the EO forum say i need to stop obsessing, but I just dont know anymore. The more i think of it the more I get sad. I even swore to myself once i wouldnt let god have me till i shared christ with as many as i could. Now it seems silly. But i want to get my facts right. Im even hoping god doesnt look at what a person does but decides who goes to heaven by whats in a persons heart. But the more i think about this stuff the worse i seem to feel. 
welcome to CF! i'm a bible student! maybe you could toss some questions my way. i love to look into things. i'm great at finding scriptures and topics. and i love to. not to debate beliefs, but to look into the spiritual implications, historical practicalities, and cultural interpretations. hey, we have a chaplin staff too! you have come to the right forums to exsplore questions and answers. staff can help you find the right forums too. there's a variety of things to fit different purposes. nice to meet you. 
