And that's a rather witty way of calling my pun a dad joke. A tip of the hat to you, good sir.
... I wish I didn't have to interrupt this conversation, but something kind of came up. I think continuing on as we were is putting me in a bad place, spiritually speaking. This isn't really to do with you, but it's due to my own spiritual weakness. I'll explain.
When it comes to socializing, I struggle with dishonesty, 'specially over the internet. Whatever fears and internal turmoils I have pressure me into being dishonest with both myself and others. I wasn't really comfortable continuing on as if everything was fine, 'cause internally it wasn't. There's just a lot of personal weight I'm carrying, and if I continue on as if everything's fine despite that weight, then I'm being dishonest. My dishonesty has caused a lot of damage in the past, and I worry about that, and my worries add onto the weight I already carry. I just don't know if I can keep going like this.
It's gotten to the point where I'd want to stop talking, because it feels like too much... which I didn't want to do because I said I
wouldn't stop talking, but if I keep talking despite not wanting to, that's also being dishonest.
Idk, I think our underlying disagreements and our chatting despite it are too familiar for me and are bringing back some painful feelings. I wanted to put those feelings aside because I wanted to be of some help to you, 'cause you were going through some tough times and you're my brother in Christ. But as Christ said, take out the log in your own eye before removing the splinter in your brother's eye. I can't be of any help to anyone with these feelings churning within me.
Sorry if this kind of exploded out of nowhere. I tend to internalize things to the point of it boiling over.
The last thing I wanted to do was to dump my problems on you.