Frustrated!!!

[fieldmouse3]

I really need to be back on some kind of medication for my depression, but I keep running into all these dead ends when it comes to looking for providers. Either the contact info I find is wrong, or the provider in question doesn't do medication, or something else. It's like God doesn't want me to get better! I've given Him more than six YEARS to fix this with only prayers, and He hasn't. I can't just wait around, letting my life be wasted by this depression. AARRRRRGH!!!!

 

[cardfan1]

I'm pretty new with whatever i'm going through, I don't know if i have clinical depression, so i don't mean to make light of your situation. I've never seen a professional, but Ive done a little snooping around and all signs point to depression. I've been trying to get to see a counselor, psychologist, somebody, but I can't seem to find anyone for RIGHT NOW - i've been waiting to talk to someone for awhile and still can't see someone until the end of the week. I can't get anything done at work, i feel like something is seriously wrong, sometimes i cry for no reason, and I AM COMPLETELY FRUSTRATED! I've been praying very hard about this for a long time and I just don't understand why the Lord is having me go through this.

Again I really don't want to sound like I have some answer, i don't. I don't even know what's wrong with me. But it sounded like you were just venting your frustration so i thought I might vent a little too.

 

[fieldmouse3]

Venting is fine with me.

 

[Everlasting33]

I really need to be back on some kind of medication for my depression, but I keep running into all these dead ends when it comes to looking for providers. Either the contact info I find is wrong, or the provider in question doesn't do medication, or something else. It's like God doesn't want me to get better! I've given Him more than six YEARS to fix this with only prayers, and He hasn't. I can't just wait around, letting my life be wasted by this depression. AARRRRRGH!!!!

I am sorry that you are very frustrated and I can certainly empathize with the frustration of depression. But, I wanted to ask you something: Do you have low self-esteem?

The reason that I ask is because I recently picked up a book, "breaking the chain of low self-esteem," and the author believes that nearly all depression is an expression of low self-esteem. I know that for me my depression did not become better from medications because it was my self-esteem that needed repair!

I hope this sheds some light on your situation and if you have any questions, please ask!

 

[bankrupt360]

I know what you are going through. I have suffered from depression for 10-15 years and through those times I have thought the same thing about God. Throughout those 10-15 years it seemed that God was never there, like he had forgotten me. I also didn't want to be on medication. I still don't but for my parents and the people who love me, I take medication. As of last Friday 6/1/07/ . I can honostly say I am over depression. God is there. God is with you. He is with you always.
Some people get healed instantly, some people have to suffer through it. But to those who suffer through it he gives you the strength to go through it. Who knows the mind of God? No one. God will not give you anything that you can't handle. Sometimes it seems like we cannot handle it but if you look closely we are still here. We survived that day.
ISAIAH 55:9:> As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.

..but I also know this...
PHILLIPIANS 1:6 :> He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.

I am one of those people who has to go through the storm. I have never had an instant healing like some people. Like I said I suffered for 10-15 years before I realized that God was there all the time. I was also someone who believed in an instant healing.

Is everything 100% better for me? No. But I am no longer depressed and I am trusting in the Lord like I have never before and I am still growing.

Don't give up hope. God also uses doctors and medication. I know how horrible depression feels. Now that I am over it I want to help someone get through it. I want to show those who are suffering that there is a light when there seems to be no light. Don't give up hope. I know how it feels.

 

[fieldmouse3]

I am sorry that you are very frustrated and I can certainly empathize with the frustration of depression. But, I wanted to ask you something: Do you have low self-esteem?

The reason that I ask is because I recently picked up a book, "breaking the chain of low self-esteem," and the author believes that nearly all depression is an expression of low self-esteem. I know that for me my depression did not become better from medications because it was my self-esteem that needed repair!

I hope this sheds some light on your situation and if you have any questions, please ask!

No, I don't have low self esteem...there really isn't ANY reason for the way I feel.

 

[cardfan1]

No, I don't have low self esteem...there really isn't ANY reason for the way I feel.

I know how you feel. I don't have low self esteem, there's no major problems in my life, and in fact I've got a lot going for me right now with my fiance, job, family, etc. If nothing bad has happened, why do I feel like i'm falling apart???

 

[GryffinSong]

I'm being successfully treated for depression with meds. I avoided asking for medical help for years, but I tell you, they've given me my life back. And once I started talking about it with family, I found out that there's a huge history of depression in my extended family. I knew my mom suffered from it, but finding out that most of my aunts also suffer (or suffered) from it, AND migraine, showed me the genetic component. I did not know they all had both until I told them I had both.

I found a medical insurance company that does help with meds, and for the first time since I worked in the computer field I now have financial help for them. I'll send you a PM with some info for you to explore. Don't know if it'll help, but as an artist working for myself, it's a pretty good deal for me.

Hugs and take care. And if you do try meds, I hope they work for you.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

OK so the cause or root problem not been identified. When you both are going thru the syntoms use this to see if any match what your going thru or what you are lacking.

http://www.coping.org/growth/burnout.htm

When you get emotional over something, do this. Go to the bathroom or someplace quiet. Try to catch it and be patient with yourself. There is something wrong under the hood and going to take some time to find out what it is. Learn to be patient and forgive yourself, when have some builded up emotion about to come out. Just wait it out and let it run it's cycle.

Like how you are frustrated, that adds gasoline to the fire. Mind is like a child, if start screaming at it then gets much worse and depression can take root.

Also if mind is over analyzing or not focused, just get some sleep. Just stop what your doing and rest, cause only going to make things worse straining yourself.

Don't stop praying, instead of asking God to fix this problem. Ask him "what are you trying to teach me?", seek understanding and don't stop "Ask, seek, knock.". He will answer help you understand.

 

[malckiah]

Jesus is The Way!