It is a punishment to the Father. For me, it is a consequence of my fathers sin. I didn't do anything to deserve it, but because of my father hating God and disobeying Him, I was afflicted. Thankfully the Lord had mercy upon me and saved me; if He hadn't I would have been completely lost forever. Because of this affliction, my delusion was very deep when I was living in the world. Although all lost people are totally lost, I feel I was more lost than most. I ended up getting into the new age myself, and it was natural to me. I intuitively understood it from the get-go, and spiritual things were happening which confirmed everything about it. It was deep, deep darkness. I thought I was in the light, and that is why I understand this scripture so well:
Matthew 6:23
But if your eye is evil, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!