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I watched Overcomer last night and that was a great film to watch it was very encouraging film to see. I have been looking up to see if you can lose your name from the Book the Life and found this encouraging passage Revelation 3:5. He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. This means my name is safely in the book of life despite these 666 and false prophet hallucinations and that one day Jesus will rapture me. I am still worried that somehow Satan is in my heart and brain but I am realizing that is impossible and that I can't be the false prophet as God never leaves or forsakes like Louie Giglio's book states. The Yellow Cross still disturbs and haunts me telling me that it was blasphemy against the Holy Spirit but I had no control over it and I still love Jesus despite the Yellow Cross that occured in the shower and it followed me to the door it was a visual hallucination that truly scared me but my friends, family, and church see the Holy Spirit in me and I enjoy praising the Lord. Yesterday I just praised the Lord and I realize that even if I did blaspheme the Holy Spirit in the hallucination my pastor stated that I would be forgiven since it wasn't my intention. I am trying to trust my friends and family my best friend is YWAM and I see him tomorrow he let me know that this Mark of the Beast stuff is all in my mind and that it was a hallucination the Yellow Cross, the Blue Light, the Red Light everything was in my mind including this out of body experience and the writing on skin, forehead, and stomach my pastor sees the Fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends know that I really strive to please God. I have had a hard time relaxing with Schizoaffective, Pandas, Autism, Ocd Scrupulosity. The blasphemy against the Holy Spirit that occurred in the Yellow Cross feels so real but I had no control over it but my friends still see the Holy Spirit at work in my life and I trust them they see that I am striving to please God including my cousin who works with mentally ill patients. I realize that this blue light in brain, stuff on my knuckles, all of this stuff is a hallucination. I wonder if it considered tactile and the Sun seems different but God is in control of these hallucinations and one day I will be in Heaven as Satan isn't truly in my brain and heart. I am just trying to relax and watch College Football and enjoy my time on Earth at 24 there is still more years ahead and being miserable about thinking about Blasphemy that I didn't truly commit in the Shower as it is a sin a Christian can't commit even though the Devil tells me I did it I wasn't verbal and it wasn't from my heart it was not my intention on October 4 to blaspheme the Holy Spirit. I didn't wake up wanting to blaspheme the Holy Spirit it was truly a normal day that spiraled out of control in the shower when I got physcosis seeing a Yellow Cross flicker that wasn't real and now I have this out of body experience where I see words on my skin, forehead, stomach and I fear that I won't be raptured by Jesus but I love him and I realize that he will never leave me or forsake me and I realize that the yellow cross is a hallucination. It all feels so real though everything even with the Lamictal and Latuda. My family isn't concerned about me losing my salvation which helps me to stay calm but it feels so real vivid that I lost my salvation on a trick by Satan mixing up the Holy Spirit and Satan in a hallucination of a Yellow Cross feels so real and Satan tells me that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit in the mix up and that I can never be forgiven as I have done the unpardonable sin but people that know me and my church know that I would never try to do the unpardonable sin as I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. I love Awana and spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ but it is hard to do that when I fear that I condemning everyone to hell and that I have some mysterious power from a hallucination turning me into a false prophet. I also realize the very fact I am concerned about it means that I have not done the unpardonable sin and that this Mark of Beast stuff isn't real as I would never accept it and forsake Jesus. I would say no if it was ever presented to me. Were not in the tribulation so there was no mark of the beast to take in the Shower that followed me to the door. We are in the period of God's grace and mercy he knows the day and the hour where Jesus will come back for me as my name is in the Book of life like the passage in Revelation states and you can't lose your name from the book of life once saved always saved even with these blasphemy hallucinations I realize that it is not real and one day I will be in Heaven with Jesus and this False Prophet hallucion with the blue light, the writing on skin, and all this Satanic stuff will be no more. I asked Jesus in my heart when I was 4 and I recently recommitted my life before the psychosis started. I think the psychiatrist is saved he let me know that is just the Devil trying to lie to me about this blasphemy stuff that I suffer from knowing that I have not committed that sin and I am trying to move on I know it is the OCD Scrupulosity. My biggest fear is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid that I committed it renders me useless to preach the Gospel. I need to just trust Jesus that he would never let Satan put 666 on me especially not for a hallucination out of my control and it was a moment of weakness that was out of my control it happened so fast that I could not stop the incident from taking place even Charles Stanley would have had a hard time with a flickering light in a cross like shape and having only seconds before it closed then a couple days later I saw a blue light and that it stated that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit and it had all these words and a red light flashed saying mark of the beast incoming but people see the Holy Spirit in me proving that this is just a hallucination my pastor said my eternal destiny is secured and he says he sees the fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends do as well. I realize everything thing I face is intense hallucinations and I would not be on be posting if I truly thought I was a false prophet. My friends see the Holy Spirit in my life and I trust them that it is just mental illness and that I have blasphemed anyone and that I am not a beast, false prophet, antichrist. Rather I am a child of God like Revelation 3:5 states . He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. God still has a plan and design for my life and it wasn't to become a false prophet it was to spread the Gospel and I hope to get well and to go into all the nations spreading the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit and follow Jesus decree that is my goal when I get well from this physcosis of thinking I am a false prophet.

Bible Gateway passage: Revelation 3:5 - New King James Version
 

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I watched Overcomer last night and that was a great film to watch it was very encouraging film to see. I have been looking up to see if you can lose your name from the Book the Life and found this encouraging passage Revelation 3:5. He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. This means my name is safely in the book of life despite these 666 and false prophet hallucinations and that one day Jesus will rapture me. I am still worried that somehow Satan is in my heart and brain but I am realizing that is impossible and that I can't be the false prophet as God never leaves or forsakes like Louie Giglio's book states. The Yellow Cross still disturbs and haunts me telling me that it was blasphemy against the Holy Spirit but I had no control over it and I still love Jesus despite the Yellow Cross that occured in the shower and it followed me to the door it was a visual hallucination that truly scared me but my friends, family, and church see the Holy Spirit in me and I enjoy praising the Lord. Yesterday I just praised the Lord and I realize that even if I did blaspheme the Holy Spirit in the hallucination my pastor stated that I would be forgiven since it wasn't my intention. I am trying to trust my friends and family my best friend is YWAM and I see him tomorrow he let me know that this Mark of the Beast stuff is all in my mind and that it was a hallucination the Yellow Cross, the Blue Light, the Red Light everything was in my mind including this out of body experience and the writing on skin, forehead, and stomach my pastor sees the Fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends know that I really strive to please God. I have had a hard time relaxing with Schizoaffective, Pandas, Autism, Ocd Scrupulosity. The blasphemy against the Holy Spirit that occurred in the Yellow Cross feels so real but I had no control over it but my friends still see the Holy Spirit at work in my life and I trust them they see that I am striving to please God including my cousin who works with mentally ill patients. I realize that this blue light in brain, stuff on my knuckles, all of this stuff is a hallucination. I wonder if it considered tactile and the Sun seems different but God is in control of these hallucinations and one day I will be in Heaven as Satan isn't truly in my brain and heart. I am just trying to relax and watch College Football and enjoy my time on Earth at 24 there is still more years ahead and being miserable about thinking about Blasphemy that I didn't truly commit in the Shower as it is a sin a Christian can't commit even though the Devil tells me I did it I wasn't verbal and it wasn't from my heart it was not my intention on October 4 to blaspheme the Holy Spirit. I didn't wake up wanting to blaspheme the Holy Spirit it was truly a normal day that spiraled out of control in the shower when I got physcosis seeing a Yellow Cross flicker that wasn't real and now I have this out of body experience where I see words on my skin, forehead, stomach and I fear that I won't be raptured by Jesus but I love him and I realize that he will never leave me or forsake me and I realize that the yellow cross is a hallucination. It all feels so real though everything even with the Lamictal and Latuda. My family isn't concerned about me losing my salvation which helps me to stay calm but it feels so real vivid that I lost my salvation on a trick by Satan mixing up the Holy Spirit and Satan in a hallucination of a Yellow Cross feels so real and Satan tells me that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit in the mix up and that I can never be forgiven as I have done the unpardonable sin but people that know me and my church know that I would never try to do the unpardonable sin as I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. I love Awana and spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ but it is hard to do that when I fear that I condemning everyone to hell and that I have some mysterious power from a hallucination turning me into a false prophet. I also realize the very fact I am concerned about it means that I have not done the unpardonable sin and that this Mark of Beast stuff isn't real as I would never accept it and forsake Jesus. I would say no if it was ever presented to me. Were not in the tribulation so there was no mark of the beast to take in the Shower that followed me to the door. We are in the period of God's grace and mercy he knows the day and the hour where Jesus will come back for me as my name is in the Book of life like the passage in Revelation states and you can't lose your name from the book of life once saved always saved even with these blasphemy hallucinations I realize that it is not real and one day I will be in Heaven with Jesus and this False Prophet hallucion with the blue light, the writing on skin, and all this Satanic stuff will be no more. I asked Jesus in my heart when I was 4 and I recently recommitted my life before the psychosis started. I think the psychiatrist is saved he let me know that is just the Devil trying to lie to me about this blasphemy stuff that I suffer from knowing that I have not committed that sin and I am trying to move on I know it is the OCD Scrupulosity. My biggest fear is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid that I committed it renders me useless to preach the Gospel. I need to just trust Jesus that he would never let Satan put 666 on me especially not for a hallucination out of my control and it was a moment of weakness that was out of my control it happened so fast that I could not stop the incident from taking place even Charles Stanley would have had a hard time with a flickering light in a cross like shape and having only seconds before it closed then a couple days later I saw a blue light and that it stated that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit and it had all these words and a red light flashed saying mark of the beast incoming but people see the Holy Spirit in me proving that this is just a hallucination my pastor said my eternal destiny is secured and he says he sees the fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends do as well. I realize everything thing I face is intense hallucinations and I would not be on be posting if I truly thought I was a false prophet. My friends see the Holy Spirit in my life and I trust them that it is just mental illness and that I have blasphemed anyone and that I am not a beast, false prophet, antichrist. Rather I am a child of God like Revelation 3:5 states . He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. God still has a plan and design for my life and it wasn't to become a false prophet it was to spread the Gospel and I hope to get well and to go into all the nations spreading the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit and follow Jesus decree that is my goal when I get well from this physcosis of thinking I am a false prophet.

Bible Gateway passage: Revelation 3:5 - New King James Version

Blaspheme against the Holy Spirit is not a passing thing that happens once.
Blaspheme is when you curse God as your central policy.
If you continue to reject God, then God can't be your savior
while you reject Him.

God forgives all mistakes and passing moods.
 
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Thanks for the encouragement skywriting. I have truly been disturbed by this blasphemy of the Holy Spirit thing that occurred from a Yellow Cross passing by that I had no control over and I wasn't trying to reject God or Curse God, Jesus, Holy Spirit. I just saw a yellow flickering light and it claims that since I bowed down before it that I blasphemed but I didn't mean to mix Satan and Jesus and I love Jesus my heart is truly breaking at the notion that I blasphemed against him in a hallucination that I had no control over it was a visual hallucination to my eyes. I had no clue it was Satan trying to trick me out of my salvation. I never would have bowed so God can forgive me of that mistake that I made mixing up Satan and Jesus in the Yellow Cross it wasn't blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. So Jesus can still rapture me when he comes back and this blue light that says Beast of the Earth isn't real. I can still praise Jesus as my savior who I asked in my heart when I was four years old and I sincerely want Jesus to be my savior and to love me and to wipe all my tears away. He is my best friend and I just want to be in God's presence just the thought that I may have blasphemed God, Jesus, Holy Spirit breaks my heart to the core and it discourages me as it wasn't my intent. I find so much joy from seeing Awana kids wanting to learn about Jesus and I truly love the gospel of Jesus Christ but I am worried that I belong to Satan for the hallucination of the Yellow Cross it concerns me so much. I know that Jesus never leaves or forsakes and I have been listening to a lot of pastors and praise music just trying to tell God how much I love him people see the Holy Spirit in my life but ever since October 4 hallucination I can't feel the Holy Spirit presence and I feel out of my body and possessed. Satan can't possess a believer through a trick or hallucination I thought. Will Jesus protect me I fear there is a dragon after me I know it is all in my head as I haven't blasphemed and I will be raptured but this feels so real.
 
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I watched Overcomer last night and that was a great film to watch it was very encouraging film to see. I have been looking up to see if you can lose your name from the Book the Life and found this encouraging passage Revelation 3:5. He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. This means my name is safely in the book of life despite these 666 and false prophet hallucinations and that one day Jesus will rapture me. I am still worried that somehow Satan is in my heart and brain but I am realizing that is impossible and that I can't be the false prophet as God never leaves or forsakes like Louie Giglio's book states. The Yellow Cross still disturbs and haunts me telling me that it was blasphemy against the Holy Spirit but I had no control over it and I still love Jesus despite the Yellow Cross that occured in the shower and it followed me to the door it was a visual hallucination that truly scared me but my friends, family, and church see the Holy Spirit in me and I enjoy praising the Lord. Yesterday I just praised the Lord and I realize that even if I did blaspheme the Holy Spirit in the hallucination my pastor stated that I would be forgiven since it wasn't my intention. I am trying to trust my friends and family my best friend is YWAM and I see him tomorrow he let me know that this Mark of the Beast stuff is all in my mind and that it was a hallucination the Yellow Cross, the Blue Light, the Red Light everything was in my mind including this out of body experience and the writing on skin, forehead, and stomach my pastor sees the Fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends know that I really strive to please God. I have had a hard time relaxing with Schizoaffective, Pandas, Autism, Ocd Scrupulosity. The blasphemy against the Holy Spirit that occurred in the Yellow Cross feels so real but I had no control over it but my friends still see the Holy Spirit at work in my life and I trust them they see that I am striving to please God including my cousin who works with mentally ill patients. I realize that this blue light in brain, stuff on my knuckles, all of this stuff is a hallucination. I wonder if it considered tactile and the Sun seems different but God is in control of these hallucinations and one day I will be in Heaven as Satan isn't truly in my brain and heart. I am just trying to relax and watch College Football and enjoy my time on Earth at 24 there is still more years ahead and being miserable about thinking about Blasphemy that I didn't truly commit in the Shower as it is a sin a Christian can't commit even though the Devil tells me I did it I wasn't verbal and it wasn't from my heart it was not my intention on October 4 to blaspheme the Holy Spirit. I didn't wake up wanting to blaspheme the Holy Spirit it was truly a normal day that spiraled out of control in the shower when I got physcosis seeing a Yellow Cross flicker that wasn't real and now I have this out of body experience where I see words on my skin, forehead, stomach and I fear that I won't be raptured by Jesus but I love him and I realize that he will never leave me or forsake me and I realize that the yellow cross is a hallucination. It all feels so real though everything even with the Lamictal and Latuda. My family isn't concerned about me losing my salvation which helps me to stay calm but it feels so real vivid that I lost my salvation on a trick by Satan mixing up the Holy Spirit and Satan in a hallucination of a Yellow Cross feels so real and Satan tells me that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit in the mix up and that I can never be forgiven as I have done the unpardonable sin but people that know me and my church know that I would never try to do the unpardonable sin as I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. I love Awana and spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ but it is hard to do that when I fear that I condemning everyone to hell and that I have some mysterious power from a hallucination turning me into a false prophet. I also realize the very fact I am concerned about it means that I have not done the unpardonable sin and that this Mark of Beast stuff isn't real as I would never accept it and forsake Jesus. I would say no if it was ever presented to me. Were not in the tribulation so there was no mark of the beast to take in the Shower that followed me to the door. We are in the period of God's grace and mercy he knows the day and the hour where Jesus will come back for me as my name is in the Book of life like the passage in Revelation states and you can't lose your name from the book of life once saved always saved even with these blasphemy hallucinations I realize that it is not real and one day I will be in Heaven with Jesus and this False Prophet hallucion with the blue light, the writing on skin, and all this Satanic stuff will be no more. I asked Jesus in my heart when I was 4 and I recently recommitted my life before the psychosis started. I think the psychiatrist is saved he let me know that is just the Devil trying to lie to me about this blasphemy stuff that I suffer from knowing that I have not committed that sin and I am trying to move on I know it is the OCD Scrupulosity. My biggest fear is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit and now I am afraid that I committed it renders me useless to preach the Gospel. I need to just trust Jesus that he would never let Satan put 666 on me especially not for a hallucination out of my control and it was a moment of weakness that was out of my control it happened so fast that I could not stop the incident from taking place even Charles Stanley would have had a hard time with a flickering light in a cross like shape and having only seconds before it closed then a couple days later I saw a blue light and that it stated that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit and it had all these words and a red light flashed saying mark of the beast incoming but people see the Holy Spirit in me proving that this is just a hallucination my pastor said my eternal destiny is secured and he says he sees the fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and my friends do as well. I realize everything thing I face is intense hallucinations and I would not be on be posting if I truly thought I was a false prophet. My friends see the Holy Spirit in my life and I trust them that it is just mental illness and that I have blasphemed anyone and that I am not a beast, false prophet, antichrist. Rather I am a child of God like Revelation 3:5 states . He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels. God still has a plan and design for my life and it wasn't to become a false prophet it was to spread the Gospel and I hope to get well and to go into all the nations spreading the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit and follow Jesus decree that is my goal when I get well from this physcosis of thinking I am a false prophet.

Bible Gateway passage: Revelation 3:5 - New King James Version
We are all delighted to see that God has graciously answered your prayers and ours. The truth will indeed set us free. Keep your focus on Lord Jesus, as you have said yourself. You are learning to trust the Lord Jesus and His great promises, instead of the false visions dumped on you by Satan. God has given you the victory through our Lord Jesus! Shove that in Satan's face and watch him flee from you. Never stop resisting the devil. God's mighty power backs your will. 100% freedom will be yours and you will be able to help others who suffer as you have.
 
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We are all delighted to see that God has graciously answered your prayers and ours. The truth will indeed set us free. Keep your focus on Lord Jesus, as you have said yourself. You are learning to trust the Lord Jesus and His great promises, instead of the false visions dumped on you by Satan. God has given you the victory through our Lord Jesus! Shove that in Satan's face and watch him flee from you. Never stop resisting the devil. God's mighty power backs your will. 100% freedom will be yours and you will be able to help others who suffer as you have.


Thanks Aussie Pete for all the prayers and the truth will set us free. I realize that I asked Jesus in my heart and he promises never to leave or forsake and people see the Holy Spirit in my life. Satan is trying to deceive me and he dumped false visions of a blue light and thought placing an illusion on me will steal my joy from God but he doesn't erase anybodies name from the Book of Life so I can't be the false prophet since God has my name in his book and a kingdom divided can't stand. I see the light at the end of tunnel with the joy of the gospel of Jesus Christ I realize that I can't be a false prophet even though I fell for the Yellow Cross it doesn't define me and it can't change my identity you can't go from Christian to Satanist. Jesus is in control my friends said their is no way God will let Satan place the real Mark of the Beast on me and my cousin let me know and the fact so many people see the fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life. I just hope the medicine keeps working even though it hasn't eliminated the blue light it seems to be helping. One day I will be in Heaven with Jesus and none of this will matter the mix up is forgivable and not blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I will keep focusing on Jesus as we head into the new year we are not in the tribulation so there is no Mark of the Beast to take like the Yellow Cross claims. Jesus will get me through this and I am not the false prophet from Revelation 13. I am a child of King Jesus who clothe me with white garments and keeps my name in the Book of Life on Revelation chapter 3
 
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