forgetting to cover up.

[explodingboy]

Does anyone else find they forget to cover there cuts up?

I caught myself today after going outside for a cigarette, that I was standing outside my apartment, in a very exposed area, road, car park, and student common area in direct line with my front door, not to mention anyone going in or out of my apartment block. While only wearing a short sleeved top.

I've also caught myself leaving my tools, and tissues etc, just laying around the apartment. I live by myself, and very rarely have people over, although I've had several close calls of late when someone has dropped by unannounced.

 

[Criada]

Sometimes I realise that I haven't covered something... it's hard when living in a family of 6 to always cover up.
Are you getting any help? Because it sounds as though some part of you may be wanting someone to notice and ask about things....

It does help to talk, if there is someone you trust.

 

[explodingboy]

I'm not getting any help, currently, and probably won't start looking until I go home.. whenever that finally happens.

I wouldn't of said it was for attention, normally I know when I'm covered or not, I take evening classes, so while walking home in the dark, I'll roll my sleeves up or take my jumper off, because no one is around and I like to be able to feel the evening chill.

It's almost entirely, just leaving the house to check the post, or have a smoke that I tend to forget about covering up, because I'll be in a short sleeves all day unless I know I've got to go somewhere.

 

[Mayflower1]

after awhile, it gets hard to cover up. I know it use to feel like the eyes were staring right through me, like they already knew what I was going through and weren't saying anything. this is one of the major reasons why I wanted to stop, because I was tired of the lies. Now I don't have to cover up anything, but when someone sees my scars, I can say, because Christ bore my scars, I overcame self-injury and the evil one. Because Christ bore my scars, I don't feel a need to harm myself anymore. Because Christ bore my scars, I could forgive, I could be healed. I am free now, because of my merciful, loving Savior, and my scars are a testimony to Him now.

 

[dreamchildattucus]

I got tierd of always being hot, so when i started school i stoped wearing long sleaves, and was cutting elsewhere, but no one noticed my scars till a few months into the semester, it was kinda weird cuz i always thought it was the first thing people saw, and the only person that confronted me was my RA... but now i don't cut, i am still kinda lerie because i have quit for a period of time before but now we are getting to more of the root of my problems...

 

[secretshadows618]

I haven't cut in a little over 4 months now but its still a major thing I'm struggling with. I used to wear arm bands on my lower forearms to cover up what I had done. When I'd go out with my best friend I didn't have to cover up and sometimes I'd need to let a particularly nasty cut get some air. At the time I was living at my cousins and I'd walk in a couple of nights without having covered them back up and I'd get caught. After that I got a little more discrete about where I placed the cuts.

I regret every bit of it though, I've got scars that are going to be with me for forever. I don't know your story or how long you've done this and from what I've seen in another thread you've been working on stopping. Keep working at putting an end to this... you don't need to be bound by the chains of cutting. Try seeking some help if not for yourself, do it so someone doesn't have to go through the ordeal of learning your secret.

Sarah

 

[explodingboy]

well went short sleeved around friends for almost the first time ever in a while.. got a few really bright red scars on my arm, nobody said anything, although I do doubt the capacity of several friends to have noticed anything happening at the time between the drink and the drugs.

Haven't really had any trouble covering up lately, pretty much stopped smoking cigarettes except for Monday evenings and occasionally while out walking. Alcohol intake has seen abit of a rise, but mainly because I'm leaving the country in 9days, and lots of my drunk college mates want to see me before I vanish.

Try seeking some help if not for yourself, do it so someone doesn't have to go through the ordeal of learning your secret.

I've never really tried to hide it excessively, more that any attempt I've made to reach out for help, results in people not wanting to see me any more.

 

[Kaitmeister]

I have some scars from 4 1/2 years ago on my arm, and I made the mistake of getting a tattoo of a cross and a treble clef over them, which made them more noticeable. It took me a really long time to let those show, and even now I get nervous when people comment on my tattoo. I don't think it's as noticeable as I think it is, however.