my dear...u r not alone...
every single man and woman and child and elder in this planet feels alone at times.
but i strongly believe that for every lonely feeling person there is an other person ready to listen and comfort. but we have to be very open minded and sometimes we have to look for this person or even persons.we have to cry out for help.
HELP ME! I AM LOSING MY MIND! HELP ME!
i believe that the "high" feeling is the problem in all kind of addictions and the most difficult to cope with. but many people have succeded in cutting down addictions so if u really want to do it u are going to.
i feel u r in a good way my friend...
the first step in a bad condition is diagnosing. and u diagnosed urself by understanding that u have a problem.
as a second step u can reach out for people that have nothing to do with addictions. i emphasize that because people with addictions might not be a good influence at difficult times. so reach out for people that can listen to u. an older person, a priest maybe. go to a church and ask for the priest. if u r not satisfied with him, go to another church, and another. professional assistance is also very valuable so if u can find it "grab" it!
i don't know if u believe in God or Christ but i can suggest something...
addictions r usually caused by an empty feeling we have and need something to cover it. so we stuff this emptiness with a drug, alcohol, self-harm , sex (sometimes) or whatever else.
when the urge for getting high comes to u, try to direct this urge in something else. direct it to God, or Christ, or ligh, or life . for example...
"i really need to have a drink now, i can't stop it...oh God make me want to find YOU with such an urge!"
or
"i want to get high now and forget all this nonsense of this nonsense world... i want to find the Light! and forget this nonsense of this nonsense world"
overcoming an addiction biologicaly is very easy. the tricky thing is the mind. and u know what i think?? that with ur mind u can do whatever u like! u can use it the way it pleases u. u can make urself stop a thought, and start thinking another one.
our life is a mind game.
and our mind usually takes over and makes the rules.
but if we get to understand it we can make our own rules and play in our terms.
i hope i gave u some ideas.
i would be glad and happy to talk to u more.
