Finding the light

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Hi all,

I am brand new to this forum and I am very happy to be here. It definitely feels right when you finally have a group of people who would listen, sympathize, push/ encourage, and even inspire you.

I am here because I have suffered from depression for a long period in my life. Since high school, which makes it about 7 or 8 years. At the beginning of this year, I was able to almost fully heal myself from this mental illness through Christ and a life of discipline. But slowly but surely, I lost my discipline, lost control, my faith started wavering, I became more fearful, and I fell into a life of condemnation and depression once again. The more I brushed these feelings away or left them unattended, the worse it eventually became. I lost absolute control of my emotions. My depression became severe, very obvious, and even worsened to include anxiety too (social). I lost all the confidence in myself because I hated myself for getting myself back to this horrible state. It was a horrible relapse and while in college, which is even harder.

After many failures, here I am fighting. Why? Because Jesus has saved me from death multiple times. This is a clear indication that he has a plan for me and my life has a PURPOSE. I've decided to forgive myself, others who have contributed much to my pain and suffering, and been determined to get my life in the right track. The right track being in a life with Christ. Friend, you will undergo hurtful experiences over and over until you finally wake up and pay attention. The Holy Spirit is trying to call your attention and lead you into the path of God. You wouldn't be who you are today nor who you will be tomorrow if it wasn't for your story. So hold on tight to Jesus, like you never have before. Foster love in your hearts, which pushes away evil and fear, and let God change you into being more like Jesus.

I am embarking in this journey to Christ, trying to heal, gain back my health and function. One step at a time, I will not get discouraged. God bless you and thank you for your time. Who else is in this journey with me?


Jesus came to give us life... In abundance. Glory be to Him.

 

[dysert]

Hi all,

I am brand new to this forum and I am very happy to be here. It definitely feels right when you finally have a group of people who would listen, sympathize, push/ encourage, and even inspire you.

I am here because I have suffered from depression for a long period in my life. Since high school, which makes it about 7 or 8 years. At the beginning of this year, I was able to almost fully heal myself from this mental illness through Christ and a life of discipline. But slowly but surely, I lost my discipline, lost control, my faith started wavering, I became more fearful, and I fell into a life of condemnation and depression once again. The more I brushed these feelings away or left them unattended, the worse it eventually became. I lost absolute control of my emotions. My depression became severe, very obvious, and even worsened to include anxiety too (social). I lost all the confidence in myself because I hated myself for getting myself back to this horrible state. It was a horrible relapse and while in college, which is even harder.

After many failures, here I am fighting. Why? Because Jesus has saved me from death multiple times. This is a clear indication that he has a plan for me and my life has a PURPOSE. I've decided to forgive myself, others who have contributed much to my pain and suffering, and been determined to get my life in the right track. The right track being in a life with Christ. Friend, you will undergo hurtful experiences over and over until you finally wake up and pay attention. The Holy Spirit is trying to call your attention and lead you into the path of God. You wouldn't be who you are today nor who you will be tomorrow if it wasn't for your story. So hold on tight to Jesus, like you never have before. Foster love in your hearts, which pushes away evil and fear, and let God change you into being more like Jesus.

I am embarking in this journey to Christ, trying to heal, gain back my health and function. One step at a time, I will not get discouraged. God bless you and thank you for your time. Who else is in this journey with me?


Jesus came to give us life... In abundance. Glory be to Him.

Hi, and welcome to CF!

I've had depression for about 17 years now. Mine would not go away with spiritual disciplines alone. I have a chemical imbalance and so am on an anti-depressant cocktail. I'm stable now, but those first several years were absolutely horrible. I hope you find healing sooner than I did.

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Wow thank you for sharing. I am happy to hear you're stable now. Its been hard to say the least. The hardest part definitely has to be the social stigma that is attached to depression, which then makes us feel more worthless and hopeless than we already do. I am in a good path now. I will not say that I do not face my daily struggles because I would be lying. However, I am happy to admit that having depression has paved the way to seek a life in Jesus. That is priceless And the greatest gift of all. Stay at peace friend!

 

[Tigger45]

First welcome to CF

Second May the peace of the Lord be upon you!

 

[dysert]

Wow thank you for sharing. I am happy to hear you're stable now. Its been hard to say the least. The hardest part definitely has to be the social stigma that is attached to depression, which then makes us feel more worthless and hopeless than we already do. I am in a good path now. I will not say that I do not face my daily struggles because I would be lying. However, I am happy to admit that having depression has paved the way to seek a life in Jesus. That is priceless And the greatest gift of all. Stay at peace friend!

I'm glad you see some positive coming out of your ordeal. I can't say anything positive about my ordeal except perhaps that I never succeeded in killing myself. The depression almost ruined my career, almost ruined my family, and almost stole my faith. Nothing good has come from mine. I'm glad for you, though.

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Thank you! May be the peace of the Lord be with you too friend.

 

[Bingo Q Flamingo]

Welcome to CF! What a wonderful post. My experience isn't altogether unlike your own; I struggled unsuccessfully with severe depression and mania for several years until I inevitably turned my life over to Christ and He helped control my illnesses better than any other treatment had previously. I still struggle from time to time, but it's never been anywhere near as bad as before.

I'm incredibly happy for you to have found the same.

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Its funny how we may feel so alone at times, but in reality we could be steps away from someone dealing with the same struggles. Thank you for sharing! I am happy that you found peace and health in Christ. We are nothing in ourselves and everything in Christ. God bless you!

 

[J0SHUA]

That seems to be a good pursuit. I am working on the same thing. I will be praying for all of us.

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Thank you so much! I will keep us all in my prayer too

 

[Jeshu]

Faith in Jesus and in His loving truth has really stabilised me, more than anything else, though medication has been useful as well.

Faith in Christ's loving truth denied the lies of my depression to exercise their powers over me. His love is awesome if we dare to believe that He loves us even when we are mentally ill (or suffer from depression).

To read the Bible as a spiritual book has been very useful in my life, where doubt and unbelief have no place and love for God (self) and neighbour are left to grow stronger and stronger.

so thumbs up for God's loving truth - Jesus Christ!

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Amen friend! It is this sinful world's biggest desire to deceive us from the love of Christ that is readily available to all of us. You know why? Because once we let Jesus love us and live in us, we bear incredible potential and a light that shines eternally. That destroys the devil and all his accomplices.

We are in this journey together. Stay loved and with the right state of mind -focused and embracing Jesus' love. Thank you for your comment.

 

[MadamImAdaminChrist]

Thanks for your great message and your new presence on CF! I hope you continue to help others as you find support here.

 

[shyIvee]

Thanks for your post.i have bn depressed for most of my life along with social anxiety.im trying to fight it and you are giving me hope

 

[ItsMyBeautifulSoul]

Wow, I am so humbled. I am more than willing to share my story. I read this short, but very powerful phrase once: "what you resist, persists." Wouldn't you agree that this is the case of depression, to some extent? We find ourselves repressing our crying souls - those feelings of emptiness, sadness, anger, bitterness, jealousy, grudge/unforgiveness etc. We allow these feelings to pile up until the burden is so large, that our mental health collapsed and we lose all control. No friends, listen to your intuition, your soul... We are our own worst enemies sometimes. But don't be discouraged, because we can also be our own BIGGEST fans. Not by our own power, but by that of Christ. That's when Jesus Christ comes in and saves us from ourselves.

I am still healing friends, this is an ongoing journey. But embrace this journey. Be patient. When you fall, pick yourself up and try again. Again and again and again until you get it right. Why? Because you are worth it. You are beautiful and this sinful world needs children of God like you. Friends, its going to work. Trust God and he will take you to places you've never even imagined. Once you notice the changes and u start seeing life from a new light, its so beautiful. So fulfilling. Your soul will be rejoiced!

Here's what I recommend you do: seek the Truth.
1. Read the Bible and search for biblical verses on a wide array of issues (anger, jealousy, forgiveness, peace, love, etc.)
2. Watch a variety of YouTube videos from different sources. Listen to what these sources have to say and figure out what works for you!

And lastly, depression is very much an illness of self-loathing and hate. This is from the devil's work. Its time to reverse this. Its time to gain self love and peace. This is everything. Once again, search a variety of sources on this and figure out what works for you.

I hope this helps. I appreciate every single one of you. I believe in you all. Let's keep fighting in the name of Jesus friends.