Hey, it's me again.
I'm at my wit's end, or close to it. Every week it seems, I have a new obsession. I can't enjoy my weekends, I feel like I'm always anxious or waiting for something to make me anxious.
I'm starting to think I want to see a therapist. But there's barriers in my way:
1) the pandemic: I don't think anyone in my area is having face to face visits, and I don't have a private place to do video chat. Also finding a Christian therapist.
2) my future: I've dreamed for the past few years of going into the air force, of travelling with them and serving my country. It's a big adventure that I'm dying to go on. But therapy for OCD would shoot that dream down. I feel as though I can function without therapy, but I'm also just not enjoying dealing with this at all.
3) my family: as I still live with my parents, it's likely going to make things difficult. I feel like their response is going to be something along the lines of "trust God more." Which I know I need to do. And that leads me to my next point.
4) me: I feel like therapy, for me personally and my own situation, that I'd be taking the easy way out. Therapy can and is beneficial to other people, and if you're reading this questioning whether you should go to therapy, do your own self reflection. But for me, I feel like I'd be cutting corners with God, so to speak.
But I'm feeling kind of miserable right now, and I just want to relax and stop over thinking and be happier. The bible says not to worry, but that's all I ever seem to do.
I'm at my wit's end, or close to it. Every week it seems, I have a new obsession. I can't enjoy my weekends, I feel like I'm always anxious or waiting for something to make me anxious.
I'm starting to think I want to see a therapist. But there's barriers in my way:
1) the pandemic: I don't think anyone in my area is having face to face visits, and I don't have a private place to do video chat. Also finding a Christian therapist.
2) my future: I've dreamed for the past few years of going into the air force, of travelling with them and serving my country. It's a big adventure that I'm dying to go on. But therapy for OCD would shoot that dream down. I feel as though I can function without therapy, but I'm also just not enjoying dealing with this at all.
3) my family: as I still live with my parents, it's likely going to make things difficult. I feel like their response is going to be something along the lines of "trust God more." Which I know I need to do. And that leads me to my next point.
4) me: I feel like therapy, for me personally and my own situation, that I'd be taking the easy way out. Therapy can and is beneficial to other people, and if you're reading this questioning whether you should go to therapy, do your own self reflection. But for me, I feel like I'd be cutting corners with God, so to speak.
But I'm feeling kind of miserable right now, and I just want to relax and stop over thinking and be happier. The bible says not to worry, but that's all I ever seem to do.