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Nony202
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Hi there. I've got a question that I'm hoping this community can help me answer. Let me start out by saying that I love my fiancee very much, and I know she loves me too, sometimes it's hard to feel that love though. It seems like I've really been struggling with this since we got engaged. We read the 5 love languages book together and figured out she is a words of affirmation person, and I am a physical touch person.
She is a little older than I am (both in our late 20s). I let her kind of govern the physical aspect of our relationship. We've not had sex yet, but things had gotten fairly physical occasionally when she would spend the night at my apartment. I feel like we were both doing a great job feeding into each others "love tanks" prior to our engagement. I was doing my best to build her up and affirm my love for her everyday, and I was being filled up when we would snuggle or kiss or she'd rub my back or when we would get more physical with all of those things.
All of the sudden wedding planning started, and things started to slow way down physically. This is when I started feeling empty. A month went by with nothing more than a few quick kisses and cuddling on the couch while she ignored me with the TV and her phone. I finally broke down when I realized she was basically just ignoring me, and I was just a pillow to prop herself up and finally said something about it. She had decided that she didn't want to do those physical things anymore. We didn't discuss it, she just up and decided to quit. Of course I have to respect that, it's just a little frustrating that I gave her control and allowed us to get to that point when it wasn't necessarily something I craved before. Well, I definitely crave it now.
Now that wedding planning is well under way, it seems like this is all we ever talk about. I'm fighting to keep anything in "my love tanks" it seems. We've talked about this, but it gets better for a while and then we're back to the same ole same ole. I'm trying my best to really feed into her and make sure she feels loved. I sometimes wonder if it's me she wants to marry, or if she just wants to get married.
What happened to the girl I fell in love with? I want to be excited about my relationship again. I want to wake up and feel like there's no doubt in my mind that my fiancee loves me. I want to get back to the time where I just wanted to shout "I LOVE YOU LEXI!" from the tallest building. Can anyone help me?
She is a little older than I am (both in our late 20s). I let her kind of govern the physical aspect of our relationship. We've not had sex yet, but things had gotten fairly physical occasionally when she would spend the night at my apartment. I feel like we were both doing a great job feeding into each others "love tanks" prior to our engagement. I was doing my best to build her up and affirm my love for her everyday, and I was being filled up when we would snuggle or kiss or she'd rub my back or when we would get more physical with all of those things.
All of the sudden wedding planning started, and things started to slow way down physically. This is when I started feeling empty. A month went by with nothing more than a few quick kisses and cuddling on the couch while she ignored me with the TV and her phone. I finally broke down when I realized she was basically just ignoring me, and I was just a pillow to prop herself up and finally said something about it. She had decided that she didn't want to do those physical things anymore. We didn't discuss it, she just up and decided to quit. Of course I have to respect that, it's just a little frustrating that I gave her control and allowed us to get to that point when it wasn't necessarily something I craved before. Well, I definitely crave it now.
Now that wedding planning is well under way, it seems like this is all we ever talk about. I'm fighting to keep anything in "my love tanks" it seems. We've talked about this, but it gets better for a while and then we're back to the same ole same ole. I'm trying my best to really feed into her and make sure she feels loved. I sometimes wonder if it's me she wants to marry, or if she just wants to get married.
What happened to the girl I fell in love with? I want to be excited about my relationship again. I want to wake up and feel like there's no doubt in my mind that my fiancee loves me. I want to get back to the time where I just wanted to shout "I LOVE YOU LEXI!" from the tallest building. Can anyone help me?