- Aug 30, 2004
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I don't really know whats wrong with me, I know I suffer from depression and anxiety... but that's about it.
But sometimes I'm fine, then i get times like this, when there is nothing at all wrong I just feel so down, I just want to stop doing anything and cry. but if I get the chance to cry I can't!
I'm working with a boy with down syndrome, and he is very full on, at the moment he is just playing racing car games on the computer, but at times he is so full on and today i just have no motivation and feel bad because i don't feel up to running around with, or after him.
Then I just feel worse because even if i do run around with him I'm not feeling happy and feel like I'm not doing my job well. which doesn't help when I get home and finally have a time to rest, because then I want to just cry AND feel hopeless at my job.
I have been to counseling, a few different ones, but the problem is, it doesn't matter how bad I feel, as soon as I walk in the room to the counselor I feel FINE and can't explain what's wrong... I just don't get it!
But sometimes I'm fine, then i get times like this, when there is nothing at all wrong I just feel so down, I just want to stop doing anything and cry. but if I get the chance to cry I can't!
I'm working with a boy with down syndrome, and he is very full on, at the moment he is just playing racing car games on the computer, but at times he is so full on and today i just have no motivation and feel bad because i don't feel up to running around with, or after him.
Then I just feel worse because even if i do run around with him I'm not feeling happy and feel like I'm not doing my job well. which doesn't help when I get home and finally have a time to rest, because then I want to just cry AND feel hopeless at my job.
I have been to counseling, a few different ones, but the problem is, it doesn't matter how bad I feel, as soon as I walk in the room to the counselor I feel FINE and can't explain what's wrong... I just don't get it!